thoughts of trash

swords

2010-11-30T00:02:00.004+07:00

He came with the sword
Like a prince ridding a horse
And stand beside me,,
To protect me with all thing that happen to me
Treated me like a queen
When he look my face and smile like his talking to me “how lucky I am to have u”
And make me flying to the heaven
even sometimes the sword hit me but not to much,,
And I still stand beside him..
Just because I love you. As simple as that

But that day the sword hit my heart so deeply
When the past came in ur dream and again u stuck in the past n worried about the future
My room is so silent, but my mind is so loud
All words running in my mind,,
How comes that sword who’s protect me n now hit my heart so hurt
Why u look back with a sword in the hands of u while I was beside u

I want to cry, I really do, but I guess I just don't want to give you the satisfaction of knowing that you hurt me once again..
you don't even realize what u have until it's gone... too often u wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong"
U ask me forgiveness u'd be willing to spend the rest of ur life begging me to give u another chance..
And every single chance I gave u,, n that time u look back n hurt me again with ur sword in ur hands

I’ve been learning to live without u now,,
but I miss u a lot ,,the more I know,, the more I understand
and its hurt me when u right beside me and yet i know i can never have u
How I lost me and you lost you or even,, I lost u and you lost me
But I know The higher I’m build the walls around my heart, the harder my tears fall down.

and I realized that I just need a therapy,
Maybe sometimes you just have to say what's in your heart, not just what you think someone wants to hear
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending
As always,, u know that I'm so deeply in love with you and I know it's definitely forever kind of love...
I hope that u’ll remember me as yours and I can get ur words…

NKOTB & BSB - 2010 American Music Awards Live Performances

2010-11-23T02:58:00.000+07:00

still in love with this group,,,

soundtrack of perjalanan mendapatkan master India Arie-I Choose

2010-11-10T09:05:00.000+07:00

Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

[Verse 1:]
Here am I now looking at 30 and I got so much to say.
I gotta get this off of my chest, I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think.
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me.(Yeah)
I pitched a fork in the road of my life and ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.

[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose. (Yeah)

[Verse 2:]
I done been through some painful things I thought that I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes.
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances, but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.

[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

[Bridge:]
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.

[Verse 3:]
From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
"from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own." And hey!

[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be courageous in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

[Bridge:]
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.

perjalanan mendapatkan master

2010-11-10T04:56:00.008+07:00

berawal dari keinginan rasa penasaran akan sbuah jurusan d universitas, yang belum kesampaian sampai skr,
berawal dari desakan orang tua yang menginginkan jurusan ekonomi dan ditambah juga saya tidak lolos tuk jurusan yang saya inginkan, dan malah terpeleset d STAN yg memang diinginkan org tua, tapi memang ga ada salahnya, dan bahkan ga da ruginya,, bahkan sdkt meningkatkan "kualitas" yg bikin hoki :D kuakui menyenangkan memang menjadi bagian dari lingkungan sana dmn gw bisa bertemu dgn teman2 yg luarbiasa pintarnya namun tetap begituu low profile @least pada saat kuliah.yg mgkn ga bisa dtemukan d universitas2 skr yg ada d Jakarta khususnya yg pergaulannya sangat tinggi. setelah saya mendapatkan diploma saya lalu saya melanjutkan sarjana saya d UGM ya dan lagi2 dengan jurusan yg masih sama, ekonomi, karna pada saat itu UGM membuka kelas yang cukup mengiurkan dengan kerjasama STAN yang memang hanya membuka jurusan ekonomi *karna STAN memang dasarnya ekonomi* hanya dengan 1tahun saya mendapatkan gelar sarjana *semacam extention tapi lebih cepat karna hanya didapat dalam waktu min.1tahun,,* ya lagi2 saya menyenangi lingkungan yg ada,dan memang kebetulan masih dalam lingkungan yang sama sperti d STAN hanya tingkatannya saja yang beda,, setelah 1tahunn lebih tepatnya 1 3bulan saya mendapatkan gelar sarjana ekonomi UGM,, lagi2 menaikan "kualitas" :D kemudian saya bekerja pada perusahaan Oil terkemuka d Indonesia PERTAMINA sebagai junior analist untuk bagian pelumas. lagi-lagi saya mendapatkan keberuntungan dalam menajalani hidup *alhamdulilah* yang pada dasarnya memang saya tidak menyukai pelajaran ekonomi dan sampe akhirnya terpeleset yang mengantarkan saya pada perusahaan itu,, dan kembali di Pertamina saya menemukan lingkungan yang LUAR BIASA menyenangkan,, terutama memiliki boss yang pengertian dan sangat membantu. tetapi memang manusia tidak pernah merasa puas,, karna merasa tidak berkembangnyan potensi yg ada dalam diri saya dan dengan rasa penasaran yang masih hinggap d dalam diri saya sampai skr,, saya memutuskan untuk meng-apply beasiswa di Russia dengan jurusan yang saya mau yaitu communication,, dan yang pada saat itu mereka mengatakan bahwa sulit Rusia menerima mahasiswa "pindahan" jurusan yg pada awalnya berbeda,, dan kembali dengan berat hati saya menggeser pilihan saya dgn tetap berada dlm bidang yg saya inginkan namun masih berhubungan dgn jurusan awal saya,, dan saya memilih "marketing" dengan kode yang jelas yang mereka berikan ke saya.
hari berlalu menunggu hasil pengumuman beasiswa tersebut sampai pada akhirnya nama saya terdaftar *walau pada awalnya smpat ada kesalahan nama* hingga harus menunda kepergian slama 1bulan. dan juga adanya perdebatan kecil antara saya dan mama,, yang masih berat hati melepas putri bungsunya tuk pergi jauh dr rumah,, ketika putri bungsu-nya yang slalu membuat "keberisikan" sana sini, putri bungsu-nya yang malas berbenah,, putri bungsu-nya yang sering kelayapan.yang jarang dirumah,, namun merindunkan * yaa pada saat ini saya berlebihan nampaknya :p* namuunkini saya tau pasti mama pasti menyayangi saya lebih dari apapun,,seorang ibu mana yg mau jauh dari anaknya? apalagi ini ke eropa yg notabennya harus menempuh 14jam perjalanan yg cukup melelahkan dan mahal,, bukan yang cuma seperti jakarta-jogja,, dan seorang perempuan d kota entah brantah,,negara komunis dgn grup skinhead yang masih eksis,, ya sampai akhirnya beliau menyetujui kepergianku dgn hasil bujukan adiknya mama yg mana sebelumnya sudah saya ceritakan keadaannya.yang dimana saya juga harus meninggalkan 'keluarga' saya d lingkungan pekerjaan.meninggalkan keluarga 'kecil" d Pertamina adalah keputusan yang berat,karena sangat menyenangkan berada dalam lingkungan tersebut.dan tentunya meninggalkan keluarga sesungguhnya dengan teman2 terbaik yang pernah ada,dan slalu ada tidak kalah berat, namun ini adalah keputusan yang sudah saya ambil, keputusan yang memang saya rencakan sebelumnya dgn suatu harapan baru.dan selama perjalanan keberangkatan tepat pada 24 oktober 2009 saya meninggalkan Indonesia untuk kuliah d Russia dengan harapan2 yang sudah tertanam sebelumnya ,, n i hope.,
*to be continue*

Endah N Rhesa - Remember Me

2010-10-24T06:19:00.000+07:00

i trying to be strong
im here standing alone
but its time for me to fight the future
i promise to come back,,
n i hope u remember me as urs,,

Sandhy Sondoro - You And I

2010-10-24T06:10:00.000+07:00

we born to make it better

Я люблю тебя ТИМА!

2010-10-23T05:36:00.000+07:00

Мгновенья жизни- как вода
Все ускользает вдали
И рвутся мысли обогнать вновь обороты земли...
Я ускоряю ход от света
Засланяясь рукой...
Но помимаю - нет ответа...я дышу лишь тобой...
И снова точки раставляю по словам словно ножь
Они вода, но мы же знаем, от судьбы не уйдешь
Я ухожу и возвращаюсь в мир, где снова с тобой
В твоем дыхание растворяюсь, позабыв боль...

Между нами так много рассотяния, разлуки
Но они исчезают когда в тових мои руки
Временам и границам не подгласны наши чувства
И любовь между нами- Это тоже исскуство...
За тебя бесконечно благодарна судьбе...
Каждая надпись на теле говорит о тебе
Каждый час, каждый миг, я шепчу Любимый, ты один в моем сердце...

Я люблю тебя Тима...

Помню вечер в клубе "Сохо", тихо голову кружит,
Понимаю, что глоток, один лишь воздуха нужен,
Но нечаяно ловлю твой взгляд неземной,
И глаза мои шепчут: "Забери меня с собой",
Вспоминаю те минуты, и свиданья на крыше,
Ты берешь мои руки, хочу взлететь ещё выше,
Отражают глаза, того кольца волшебный свет,
И кажеться с тобою в Мире нашей звезды нет,
Между нами так много...мы бываем на грани...
Но судьбою своею, управляем мы сами,
Пусть любовь, а тревога, и эмоции лишь части,
Их скрепит, воплащет наше общее счастье!!!

За тебя бесконечно благодарна судьбе...
Каждая надпись на теле говорит о тебе
Каждый час, каждый миг, я шепчу Любимый, ты один в моем сердце...

И суровая реальность, нишх сор в холе Рица,
Выбор: дать ещё шанс или разлука...заграница?
То признанья в любви, бесконечно со мной,
Вечно в сердце моём живи...
Тима, Я хочу быть с тобой!!!

За тебя бесконечно благодарна судьбе...
Каждая надпись на теле говорит о тебе
Каждый час, каждый миг, я шепчу Любимый, ты один в моем сердце...
Я люблю тебя Тима!!!

TIMATI - Я буду ждать

2010-10-21T03:15:00.000+07:00

Не помню нот я и не помню мотив
Я потерял себя её отпустив
Ты попрощалась и ушла навсегда
Сентябрь месяц и по стёклам вода.

Я знаю точно, во всём моя вина
Я был с другими, а ты дома одна
И лишь теперь я понимаю всерьёз
Что я совсем не стою твоих слёз.

Припев:
И даже если ты забудешь обо мне
Я буду ждать, я буду ждать
Прости, я не сумел наше счастье удержать
Я буду ждать, я буду ждать.

И может быть ко мне вернёшься ты опять
Я буду ждать, я буду ждать
Как жаль что не успел я вслед тебе сказать
Я буду ждать, я буду ждать.

Эти видения пугают меня
Ведь в каждой встречной снова вижу тебя
Не знаю как мне эту боль отпустить
И кто бы знал что я смогу так любить.

С тобой одной хочу я жизнь разделить
Тепло тебе и нашим детям дарить
Забыв о прошлом мы пройдём сквозь года
Ведь есть одна любовь, любовь навсегда.

Припев.

И полетели искры прямо из глаз
Посыпались плагины и монитор погас
Зачем мне технологии, деньги в этом мире
Если нет любви, глаза открылись шире.

Я победил в делах, но проиграл в любви
Да, я хотел семью, а что теперь - смотри
Печален, одинок, будто мотаю срок
Смотрю на небо, будто жду от Бога знак.

Я понял всё когда любви не стало
Я понял всё, но как начать сначала
Ведь я разрушил всё что строили мы годами
Ведь я разрушил всё своими руками.

И я смотрю на них, они как-будто в крови
А в отражение я вижу портрет убийцы любви
И в моей жизни нет счастья, одно лишь только горе
И я сижу и жду как старик у моря.

Припев.

Градусы - Кто ты

2010-10-17T22:23:00.000+07:00

1 куплет.
Пешеходом уже быть достало,
И всего, как обычно, мало.
Я сижу понемногу вникаю,
Ну зачем большие окна трамваю?
Я думаю, я думаю,
Я ничего опять не придумаю.

( http://alllyr.ru/text96345.html )
Припев:
Кто-то на балконе повис,
Кто-то быстро вверх потом вниз,
Я пока рисую мосты,
А ты, а ты, а кто ты?
Кто-то на балконе повис,
Кто-то быстро вверх потом вниз,
Я организую мосты,
А ты, а ты, а кто ты?

2 куплет.
У одних закипают моторы,
Закрывают глаза на приборы.
Я пытаюсь, но не понимаю,
Для чего людей так много Китаю.
Но не об этом щас.
Я думаю, я думаю,
Я ничего опять не придумаю.

Припев.

3 куплет (рэп).
Утром встану, умоюсь с мылом,
Погляжу в окно вид…
Полистаю нет, посмотрю картинки,
Что меняет все, о блондинки.
Позову из нижней Натаху.
Кто стучит? Сосед? Иди на…
Пять минут готов сижу думаю,
Но опять ничего не придумаю.
Я думаю, я думаю,
Я ничего опять не придумаю.

Припев.

Sandhy Sondoro - MTV Studio - 02 End of The Rainbow

2010-08-26T18:37:00.000+07:00

And now… I promise you…
That I will so… so close to you…
Like you want me too…
Like I want it too…
And now… I think I’m in love with you…
And…this scenes…got my eyes on you…
For the first time.. yee for the first time…

Reff:
And now… I’ll pick up the star for you…
If you love me too…if you love me too…
I know… I’ll fly you to the sky over the seven sky…
If you love me too …

And now… don’t know what to do…
You got me drown so deep into…
Into you… so deep into you…
Reff:
And now… I’ll pick up the star for you…
If you love me too…if you love me too…
I know… I’ll fly you to the sky till the end of the raindow
End of the rainbow…

Little by little pass your life embrace your heart…
Light my love melt into your soul….
Into your soul…yeahhh
That my love that your life embrace your heart…
melt into your soul…
End of the rainbow… Over the seven sky yeiyeyehhh…

quote

2010-08-15T18:33:00.007+07:00

everything happens for a reason"
""even when we are not wise enough to see it.""

"A little patience can drastically reduce major life long errors."
""Lets ask ourselves that how often have we misjudged people and torn them to shreds with harsh words and even with physical assault before we have had time to evaluate the situation?""

"What happens is not as important as how you react to what happens" ..."

"Forget Perfection and Embrace Completion!"

"The roles of a mother and father are different responsibilities than those of husband and wife."

"Dont make promises you cannot keep..."

"You can’t change the past but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future"

"technology is dangerous..."

"happiness is a choice"

"Things taken lightly will nvr be done rightly..."

"" Choose a work which you love and you won't have to work a single day of your life. ""

Mind plays an important role in controlling our emotions...."

" Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference."
""Winston Churchill""

"More important than results is the direction where we are going."

"TIME is the biggest HEALER!!!"

"Football is OVERRATED!"

"Happiness mostly is felt while you give,that is so in every relationship"
""And the relationships last when each in relationship wants to give.""

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles; it empties today of its strength."

We can train our minds to achieve a state of tranquillity, without being disturbed by outside forces."

"DECISIONS are the hardest thing to make.. Especially wen it's a choice between where you should be and where you want to be."

"Seeking love chases love away.."
""many people find love when they have given up the search..Many relationships break down because one or the other partner is busying him/herself seeking proof that they are loved.They forget where love begins, as they fail to give...""

"The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands.. "

"The only thing which can not be recycled is WASTED TIME''"

"You have to sow before you reap. You have to give before you can get!"

"everything happens for a reason"
""even when we are not wise enough to see it.""

"An accidental meeting is more pleasant than a planned one. "

"A little patience can drastically reduce major life long errors."
""Lets ask ourselves that how often have we misjudged people and torn them to shreds with harsh words and even with physical assault before we have had time to evaluate the situation?""

"IF you can discipline your desire - you can mould good character"

"The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen."
""Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention.... ""

"Distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart"

"If love is your greatest weakness than you are the strongest person in the world."

The hardest victory is over self."
""I count him brave who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies - Aristotle.""

"Life is unpredictable!"

"true friend are a rare present cherish them well"

"When friendship ends loves begins, when love fades can friendship begins?"
""..and if friendship ends, will hatred begins?""

"Win people, not battles."

If you are blessed with material wealth, give!"
""Give something (clothes, food, money, your time, etc) to those who really need it. There are too many children and adults in this world who need assistance of some sort. ""

"The most beautiful freedom we are given is the one to choose."

"“Never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can't take it."
""Never say you don't love the person anymore when you can't let go.""

"No one can help you unless you help yourself first!!"

are mind and heart two separate things or just a split personality of ours?"

"lies can take u to the top but can not keep u there"

Count your blessings. Once you realize how valuable you are and how much you have going for you, the smiles will return,"
""the sun will break out, the music will play, and you will finally be able to move forward the life that God intended for you with grace, strength, courage, and confidence.""

"What would be the best course of action when you do not approve of the person your son/daughter is dating?"
""How much shall you dominate or impose vs how much respect and freedom to choose? Sometimes you as a parent see disaster walking in your door and just have to step aside... after all we all have the right to make mistakes every now and then... specially when we are growing up.""

"The success of a relationship depends upon its maturity."

"should we do what we want or what we must ?"

"Eventually we are all memories in the life of others"
""Either a good or bad, and either it will stay or soon forgotten""

"The right to make your own choice is the mother of all freedom"

"are we always reluctant to undertake any responsibility & accountability ?"

"Your words represent you. Be true!"

"''you are 100% in control of your emotions''"

"Spelling and grammar are a lost skill these days."
""Texting and the simple lack of basic education is killing our language little by little. ""

"The key is not to prioritize what's on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities."

"Happiness is elusive...."

"everything happens for a reason..."

"Be the kind of person that you would want to have in your life."

"focus on doors wich are open, not the one who are closed."

"love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who dont."

"The worst part of life is waiting. The best part of life is having someone worth waiting for."

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.???"

"The happiness you give makes you more happy than the happiness you receive."

"Love does not have a start or an end..."
"" only a continuum of emotions and feeling for one another.""

"Internet relationships are fun, but they don't compare to real life ones."

"Life is all about lessons."
""You live, you learn. You love, you learn. You laugh, you learn. You cry, you learn. You lose, you learn.""

"It’s better to live ur own destiny imprfectly thn to live an imitation of smbdy else’s life with perfection~BhagavadGita"
""Celebrating the birth of Lord Krishna""

2010-06-05T18:25:00.010+07:00

"Hatred is Self-punishment!!"

"Imagination is more important than knowledge."

"Our health condition will only be as good or bad as we make it."
""It's not that difficult to avoid matters as smoking, drugs or other things that might ruin our health.""

"Nothing is good or bad thinking makes it so"

"Don't say 'Yes' when u want to say 'No' !"

"Love is about feeling beautiful inside as well"

"Your greatest power is the power to choose...."

"Harmony............. ...Balance your mind, body, and soul!"

Home is in my moms eyes

God doesn’t improve , he perfect he doesn’t enhance he complete

Ladies if u’ve been cheated that doesn’t make u a less lovable person at all

U’ll never have true happiness until u do what fulfills u

All of my smile will tell u about him

Its only a words are all I have to take ur heart away

Sometimes u cant see urself until u see ur self through the eyes of others

Im leaving because u never asked me to stay

May be he’s a boy but im not that girl

Just becos u deserve it doesn’t mean they’re going to give it to u. you have to fight for it

Just because I don’t cry in front of u doesn’t means im heartless

Just because u think u know me doesn’t mean u actually do

Most dude are cool with females having fake hair,nails n so on. Its just the fake female that’s a problem

The only way to 4get a old love is to get a new love

Theres no cure for heartbreak but laughter a good medicine

Having sharp memory is great but sometimes the ability 2 forget is a lot better

Id rather be beat up than ignored. bruises last a few days but loneliness lasts 4ever

If conversation is a lyric laughter is a music

But this is the sad part we weren’t even 2gether n he broke my heart

Do not love one, not two. But love the one who loves you TOO.
Do not love three, not four. But love the one who loves you MORE
Do not love five, not six. But love the one who truly STICKS.
Do not love seven, not eight. But love the one who is willing to WAIT.
Do not love nine, not ten. But love the one who'll love you until the END.

"man tries to control the environment but nature will prove him wrong, eventually"
""volcanoes preventing flights, tsunamis, earthquakes... better off living with nature than against it""

"It is the things in common tht make relationships enjoyable, but it's the little differences that make them interesting"

"Look backward with gratitude and forward with confidence."

"god is omnipresent ."

"do not be afraid to make mistakes but do not repeat them."

"" A person can be beautiful on the outside, but true beauty comes from the inside. ""

"If you were to make the biggest decision in your life, would you rather be "Happy but wrong or sad but right?""

"Don't Limit Your Challenges.... Challenge Your Limits."

"Lifes joys come from relationships and friendships, not from material things!"

"Which team you encourage for the world cup 2010" -for me HOLLAND-

"silence is mysterious, but too much is too boring"

"Everytime you stumble, become stronger...not more vulnerable..."

"Life is like a spinning wheel..sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down.."
""Smile you're lucky when you're up there..but don't forget that you've been down there.""

"It´s never too late to start being a better person."
""Kinder, gentler, compassionate, understanding, patient, loving.""

"The feeling of falling in love is better than falling in love ; ))"

"We do not remember days; we remember moments...."

"The roles of a mother and father are different responsibilities than those of husband and wife."

Just a thought: If people talk behind your back, it simply means you are several steps ahead of them. -Dr.Seuss

"Ability may get you to the top, but it takes character to keep you there. "

"Relationships stand threatened by lack of trust and transparency than anything else."

"Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other."

"Great is the man who sees the bright side of LIFE"

"Love dont need reasons, but to stop loving needs reason. "

"The mind is everything. What you think you become."

"Bad habits have short term benefits but long term consequences"

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards"

"There's a great contentment in living life unconditionally."

BIG MOUTH

2010-06-05T18:12:00.001+07:00

In real life, people judge me from my actions without knowing the reason behind it
That u think u are so naïf?
You think that u are nice more that me?
No!! you not better than me,,
you have 2 face
innocent and liar
That you remember that I know about you too honey?
I’m here not to threaten you
Just keep your fuckin big mouth
But just remember that Lies are like balloons.
You made the story up, it gets bigger as you blow, and then, it will pop sooner or late
N do u think I’m here just quite and not do anything?
No,, you wrong honey
You don’t know me very well
What ever your hiding someday he/she will know what you do
And I know that,,,
Don’t ever to start the game with the person that u don’t know honey
U really in a big trouble,,,
Do u ready for that?

PS : Friends never make assumptions about you. in fact friends only expect you to be you
True friends is some1 u can trust with all ur secret

Missing u

2010-05-22T14:42:00.001+07:00

For two night i look up at the sky
Baby tell me what can i do to make it right ?
Just because I don’t cry in front of u doesn’t means im heartless
Coz im just lying here awake all nite
and I dont know what to do
I’m just crying but u don’t know
Because the tears is the only way how my eyes speak when my mouth can’t explain
how things made my heart broken
I… can’t keep on living this way

Im leaving because u never asked me to stay
When I say “leave me alone
Its doesn’t mean I want to be alone
I just So confused n wondering why
for the way u change my plan
and make all this opened
For the ending in my first begin
Do you know how much it hurts to be missing you
And i dont understand all the reason why?
All i know is that im missin u
In my head, I see you all over me
N i just know that im thinkin of u
Are u thinkin of me too?
Cuz I miss your love so much
Baby, I’m missing you…

For the unexpected friend
For the real ure something that I never choose
But sometimes I never wanna loose
It's hard for me to tell you I love you
It's hard to decide when I'm too tired to hold on, but I'm too in love to let go
I wish i could’ve told u “i love u”
Things will never be the same without you…
I need you here with me
Just to prove to you, how much I need you here
N know its clear I need u
I need u here always

2010-05-08T03:05:00.012+07:00

Love isn’t finding a perfect person. It’s seeing an imperfect person perfectly
My heart is an express train, which its destination is you.
Lips that taste of tears are the best for kissing
The best kind of kiss is when you have to stop because you can't help but smile
Love can be your best friend or your worse enemy.
Where the heart is willing, it will find a thousand ways. Where it's unwilling, it will find a thousand excuses
Let your voice be heard. Stand up for what you believe in
Let love in. Follow your dreams. Be who you are.
A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous
There are no best-friends after ex-boyfriends
If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

"How u made the other person feel is more important than what you said"

"Everyone knows what they want, most people don't know what they need."

"Chasing After The Impossible Lead U to Lose What IS Possible......"

"Sometimes it's better to lose the argument than lose the person or the relationship."

"You will not be punished for your anger , but You will be punished by your anger"

"Everyone is gifted but some people never open their package."

"There’s nothing in this world worth having that comes easy"

Do not love one, not two. But love the one who loves you TOO.
Do not love three, not four. But love the one who loves you MORE
Do not love five, not six. But love the one who truly STICKS.
Do not love seven, not eight. But love the one who is willing to WAIT.
Do not love nine, not ten. But love the one who'll love you until the END.

"No matter how bitter is the truth..it'll always taste more better than a sweet lie."

"You can't realize how tired you are until you take vacation"
""as long as we are busy by work, we forget that we need rest""

you would never know how caring and loving your parents are until u r a mother or a father"

"Man is the most complicated living organism."

"No gift to your mother can ever equal her gift to you - life!"

"Who should make the first moves in dating?"
""Man or woman? Consider the fact that guys love the chase, but some guys are really shy. And women should keep their image as "good girl", but some women are a perfect homebody. Complicated ideas :s""

"Believe in power of prayer!!"

"Of all your promises the ones you make to yourself are the most important."

"Someone who gossips with you will gossip about you...??"

"Happiness is enhanced by others, but does not depend upon others. "

"We live in the present but are what our past has made of us."

"When you love - you want to believe. When you believe - you want to love."

"The greatest friend of man is the skill or talent...."

"Helping Hands is better than Praying Lips So be helpful to everyone."

"Winning is not everything, but wanting to win is......"

""Love without reason lasts the longest""

"Believe in power of prayer!!"

"Happiness is enhanced by others, but does not depend upon others. "

"Harmony............. ...Balance your mind, body, and soul!"

"Your greatest power is the power to choose...."

"Love is about feeling beautiful inside as well"

untitled,,

2010-04-12T05:15:00.003+07:00

Blue skies turning grey
Snow is on the ground
And will gone
Because Winters come
I’m long to not hear your voice
When I long gone
I’m too much missing you
I’m too loosing you
I’m sorry I’m so disappointed to you
And so do disappointed with myself

When I'm gone
Who'll ease your pain?
Ease your pain
When I'm gone?
Who'll watch over you?
Who will give you strength
When you're not strong?

And When youre not here
Who is gonna save me
And who'll watch over me
Whos gonna care for me
But It’s already becoming my decision
I guess

quote of the month

2010-04-04T15:30:00.009+07:00

"The best April Fool's jokes are ones that do have an element of truth in them and are believable at first."
""However, one needs to ensure that April Fool's jokes are not too serious because there are implications. So be careful on April Fool's Day. Do take delight in one another, but be sensitive too.""

"Helping others to do their best ,unlocking their potentials to become better .. is what makes u a great leader"

"There is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path!"

"Desire remains as a desire till you achieve it, then there remains no desire."

"commitment is the key to a lasting relationship"

"If you eliminate physical clutter then you can eliminate spiritual clutter."

"Judge others by their questions rather than by their answers."

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future,"
""or not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.""

"If you eliminate physical clutter then you can eliminate spiritual clutter."

"After every ending there is always a new beginning"

"giving an advice is easy bt implementing in one's own life is equally difficult.."

"Giving Up doesn't always mean you are weak..Sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go"

"Be kinder than necessary, because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle"

"Errors have an unforgettable Taste... when we assimilate their Lessons..."
""Some persons can consider this as a bad moment. (1st impression) If analyze with objectivity. The experience contains a added value who is very positive and surely be useful all our life.""

"Sometimes releasing someone you love is easier said than done!!"
""Even when you know in ur mind that it's for the best, sometimes ur heart just doesn't comply.""

"Everyone has a burden. What matters is how you carry it"

"If not with right person, being single is awesome ."
""If things don't work out you better just let it go. It's so painful to hold someone who doesn't cherish you tight while the two hearts are already apart. Focus on the future and find someone who deserves your love. Delayed gratification is good.""

"Present actions of people reflect how they have been groomed in their past."
""If you know their past then you will never amaze by their present actions.""

"We need to learn the art to say NO"
""This is important to prevent people to take advantage on us. If every time we say yes, we are giving in ourselves..not good for personal growth""

"Sometimes you are a winner when u don't lose patience while you are losing the game... "
""That can make u win the game ..:)""

"There is never any failure... there can only be scope for continual improvement!"
""Time for some adjustments; modifications; re-adjustment; adaptation... Something little thing must help you achieve it.... u just need to fix it in the right place....""

"The longer the excuse, the less likely it's the truth. Right...???"

""Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship..""
"""It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.." a really touching quote that struck me to make me realize certain things.. Credits to Teddy for letting me use this.""

"“Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans.”"

"Take responsibility for the choices you make..."

"Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way. "

2010-03-25T06:13:00.001+07:00

Sometimes I feel that I miss u so much,,
But sometimes I don’t feel anything
Sometimes I wanna say that I love you too
But sometimes I not really sure about that feel
That’s way I cant say it to u
Not really sure about my feeling
Its that u the right man for me?
That the true feeling that I hiding from you
Time to be honest huh?

But thanks for be patient
Thanks to still there beside me,,
Thank for the flower n the time u always give to me
It's the one things that you do,
So physical,
I don't wanna hurt nobody,
But my heart just can't hold back,
It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I want too but I scared too,,
It's not impossible,
Got to let you know,

sorry not enough

2010-03-25T03:19:00.002+07:00

Forgive me
Sorry i still make u hurt
I'm sorry that was just like this
Even not for the first
And just like before you were still forgive me
Still just be patient and give me the way
Still want to give your body for a hug tightly
Still, open your hand to guide me
Still, give me your shoulder to lean
And still be patient to give all existing affection
Dont know what I was looking
dont know what kind I want
dont know what else,,
I still do with selfishness
I'm still with the black veiled past baying
I'm still unprotected
Honestly I was tired
Honestly I was disappointed
I honestly wanted to get out of all
However, much less whether that is still stored in my mind
And still doubtful

quote of the month

2010-03-04T23:27:00.007+07:00

"...true words aren't beautiful, beautiful words aren't true.."

"understanding is one thing, accepting is an other"

"Love comes unseen; we only see it go........."

"Be mindful of the impact you might have on another life. "
""Accept and understand that your attitudes and choices will affect others. So, be graceful and grateful at all times. Seek to be friendly, helpful, and responsive to those in need. Be your very best, for someone is ready to mimic your every move""

"Strength of mind comes from life's experiences"

"Fondness for someone grows slowly and naturally.........."
""when u fond of symphony,it doesn't start automatically but rather start from somewhere and it then grows gradually and naturally.""

lust fades away with time, but true love remains timeless!"

"Today is International Woman's Day. You be proud as a woman."
""You women always inspired men with your love and affection and provided the men with the pleasure of having a mother, a sister, a wife and a friend. Now men should understand that Woman's empowerment is intertwined with respect for human rights. ""

"Everyday, should be Woman's Day, Men's Day and Children's Day..just celebrate Life !"
""We don't need a day or a reason to be..""

"Love is like a war: easy to start hard to end"

"it really hurts when some one leave..... without a reason....."

"“To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are.”"

"A true Love will always want you with him, not just wishing you were with him."

"to misunderstand is easy, its the understanding part...thats the hard work!"

"experience, is what you get, when you dont get what you want!"

"you can not escape from the past"

"we always change; it is the most realistic thing in life."

"we grow out of love coz we don't feed it to grow."

"Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul."

"doubt is the beginning of wisdom"

"I love you- the three most overused, misunderstood, & misused words in the english language."
""But i love hearing it!""

"Goodness is The Only Investment That Never Fails...."

"One should be able to differentiate between attraction and love"

""Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us.”"

"Remember to switch off your lights for earth hour, 8.30pm - 9.30pm, 27th march, 2010. Lets do something for our planet."

"“If you want to feel rich, just count the things you have that money can't buy "

"You can make all the changes you want to make in your life, you just have to start."

"Assumption is the seed of evil thoughts!"

"What people say is often very different from what they are thinking or feeling!"

main hati

2010-02-24T02:13:00.003+07:00

sungguh aku tak pandai memilih
dihatiku ada dia dan aku
namun aku dirimu dirinya tak mungkin mengerti
cinta tak akan salah
andaikan kau tetap dengan ku
meski kita harus jalan diam-diam,
seberapa salahkah diriku
yang ingin memilikimu tetap berada disampingku
namun terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
bagiku terlalu indah perasaan ini
tlah ku coba berbagai cara
kulihat hatiku
engkau ada saat aku tak ingin pergi
aku hancur aku terluka meski aku bukan dibenakmu lagi
ketika smuanya harus berakhir
ketika pelukku tak lagi berarti
masihkah aku disana direlung hati dan mimpimu?
bilakah ku pergi akankah kau kembali
namun kau hilang menjauh
mgkn mereka benar aku tak layak aku tak berhak memilikimu
andai waktu bisa kuputar kembali
ku tak mampu melupakan yg pernah terjadi
ku akui ku main hati

if only

2010-02-24T02:10:00.002+07:00

I love u
I wanna tell u why I love u
I have to tell u
I love u since I meet u
but I didn’t truly feel it till this day

I always thinking in a head
make a decision it afraid
today because of u what I learn from u
every choice I made different in my life
its completely change
n I blind then u did it my live fully
coz it not matter if u have 5 minute or 50th years
its not for today its not for u
I never it
so thank u for being n supposed me to love
n to be love

today I bad my live
u have no I did what I feel inside
don’t be afraid to let it show
for u never know
if u let it hide

I love u , u love me
take this gift and don’t ask why
my love show u everything
one day u be standing next to me
n appreciated what i have

21.02.2010

2010-02-24T02:08:00.001+07:00

minggu ini
perasaanku tidak begitu tenang
entah mengapa
akhirnya aku memutuskan tuk menelpon rumah
setidaknya bisa membuatku tenang bila mendengar kabar bahwa keluargaku baik2 sajah
terlebih mendengar bahwa mereka khususnya mama bahagia di rumah
dan akhirnya aku berhasil menghubungi keluarga disana
senangnya hati ini begitu mendengar bahwa baik2 sajah
the pipit : kita abis dari TMII sama smuanyaaaa ada zahwa + rhadin jugaa
zahwa : aloo tante ayu zahwa abis naek kereta gantung,, tante lagi apa? Lagi di rusia yah?
Mama : iya mama juga kangen ayu juga , ga ada yg ribut yang rame lagiii
Papa : jaga diri aja disana yahh
Ka affan : pasti gratisann lagi lo tlpnya :p kapan pulang ???
Teneng : ,,,, terlalu banyak mengenai kerjaan, titipan,, dll
Dan ternyata ga tenang hati ini karnaaaaa merekaaa pergi tanpaaa gw hherhhheheehhe:p
Anyway
Yang penting mereka senang dan sehat dan baik2 sajahh udahh bisa buat senang 
Tapiii membuatku kangennnnnn
Just wanna say I Love u all u always in my heart ,,

qoute of the month

2010-02-07T05:35:00.004+07:00

"Fondness for someone grows slowly and naturally."

""The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.""

""Don't judge a person on your first meeting ""

"Your character is your prestige...."

"Let us not look Back in Anger, nor Forward in Fear, but Around in Awareness!"

"Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through"

"Don't let anyone take control of your Destiny!.....it's up to you how to make it and shape it!!..."

"the spiritual world is beyond the material,"

"Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present."

"Opportunities may arrive at the wrong time but they leave at the right time......their time."

"Knowledge talks, wisdom listens."

"Inspiration can positively change one's way of life."

"Quality or quantity, which one you are gonna choose..."

"Parenting is about presence, not presents!"

One form of loving is when you just want the best for that person whether it includes you or not.

sometimes the best for you is not what you need..."

"FOCUS ON WHAT YOU WANT ...NOT ON WHAT YOU DON'T WANT''....."

Once you've loved someone they will always have a part of your heart and be a part of it to."

"Today relation starts through phone , grows through messages nd ends with phone busy"

"We can make all our days a valentine day"
""It's just psychological.""

"We do need reassurance."

"We are responsible for our own actions!!"

"Love is not a maybe thing. You know when you love someone"

"Life is a constant ride on an emotional roller-coaster."

"If you don't control your own mind, then watch out, someone else will!"

"Feelings change memories don't."

"Baby create a connection between husband and wife."

"Never hold on to someone for life who was meant to be with you for only a season."

1 nama pria lain dlam hidupku

2010-01-31T08:05:00.002+07:00

jika ada 1 nama pria dalam hidupku selain ayah dan kaka2ku
adalah kamu
sahabatku
adank ,,,

bukan berarti sahabatku yang lain ( asto, resza ) tidak berartii, mereka tidak kalah berarti dalam hidupku
zundiah?? udahlahh yah buu lo satu2nya cewe diantara kita *selaen gw pastinya* dan itu udahh pastii gw sangat sayang ma lo,,bahkan sebelum kita kenal adank,resza,asto!! lo udah ada dalam hidup gw!!even kita sempet terpisah 3 tahun!!!
and i still love u until now!! and i hope it will be forever

adank selalu ada dalam setiap tetes air mata kesedihanku..
kamu selalu ada dalam setiap inci lebar senyumku ..
susah suka kamu selalu ada
mereka-pun ada

aku bisa menjadi diriku sendiri
aku bisa meluapkan semua apa yang ada dihati
aku bisa sangat bahagia
dan aku bisa menjadi sangat terluka

dia memberikanku ketulusan layaknya kaka
dia bisa memberikanku perlindungan layaknya keluarga
dia bisa memberikanku nasihat layaknya seorang ayah
dia bisa memberikanku perhatian layaknya seorang kekasih

namun terkadang dia bisa membuat diriku sangat bersedih layaknya org yg berduka
dia bisa membuat diriku sangat terluka layaknya senjata
dia bisa membuatku sakit layaknya syatan pisau

tapi aku bahagia memiliki sahabat seperti dia
aku bahagia dengan kesederhanaannya
dan aku juga ingin dia bahagia dengan memilikiku sebagai sahabat!!

bukan hanya aku yang bisa membagi kebahagiaan, kesedihanku padamu
aku juga ingin merasakan kebahagiann dan kesedihan yang kamu rasakan!!!
bukankah itu yang harus dimiliki sahabat?
bebagi suka dan duka?

kali ini aku hanya ingin MENDENGARKANmu bercerita
tentang kamu,, dan smua tentang kamu
agar aku tau
bukan hanya kamu yang tauu tentang aku
dan jangan buatku bersedih karna aku tidak tau apa2 tentang shabatku
jangan buatku merasa egois
PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT HAPPEN WITH U

but he's alwyas make me laugh every second in my life
and i hope i still have u to make me laugh every time in my life with all my best friends,,,
forever
and i love u always as my best friend i ever had!!!!

* resza+asto+zundiah i love u more n more !!!
coz' u are make us Complete *

zundiah : u r the beatiful girl i ever see!!!! dan itu membuat gw ngiri!!! dan merasa ga da "tai2nya" klo jln
ma lo!! untungnyaaa gw mati rasa ma lo smua hehehe:p tapi justruuu bangga bgd pny temen
kaya lo!!* gw jadi bisa dandan dikit2 hehhehe:D love u bebz,,
resza : cowo terpendiemm yang pernah gw temuinn dan kita berhasil menaklukannn dia tuk jadii cerewet
walopun jadi konyol!!!hehehhe:p
asto : cowo labill!!! gede doank!! hahahhaa :p kadang alimmm bnged, kadang banggor!! tapi asto
cukup dewasaaa dan bisa ngelindungin kita dari gede-nya badan dia hehhehe:p!!

i love u guys!!!

quote of the month,,,

2010-01-30T21:52:00.000+07:00

"As one year closes another decade fast approaches full of the prospect of improving on the past & creating new horizons."
""As Einstein said, "Your imagination is your preview of life's coming attractions" so dare to dream and reach for the skies.""

"If u are depressed u are living in past If u are anxious u are living in future If u are at peace u r living in present"

"Stress is all in the mind."

"It is always tempting to know what is INSIDE...whether it is a parcel or mind..."

"when you realize who matters,who never did and who never will you are happy"

"Disappointments can be viewed as necessary experience along the way to ultimate success."
""We may be disappointed with ourselves when we commit a sin. Yet, we can recover if we take proper and purposeful action and move forward.""

"It takes two to fight."
""It takes one to reconcile.""

"It no matter you ain't beautiful...as long as you are true to you"

"It takes two to fight."
""It takes one to reconcile.""

"No one can give you better advice than yourself."

"Sometimes A Sorry Being Said By The Mouth...Means Nothing From The Heart..."

"Relationships are never tough, its we humans which make them complicated ......"

"Never judge someone until you have walked a mile in there footsteps.."

"Everyone is searchin for somethin/someone for happiness but we r never full so 1 of de best solution is to compromise.."

"“Fears are nothing more than states of mind”"

"lets all pray for the Victims of Haiti Earthquake"

"truth of life: you may fall in love with the beauty of someone, but remember, finally you have to live with,,,"
""with the character, not with beauty.""

"We always fall in love with the most unexpected person.."

"Love alone is never enough to hold someone back unless it's the love of the one going."

""Our power is in our ability to decide.""

"Distance is just a test to see how far love can travel. "

I love you takes 3 seconds to say, 3 hours to explain, and a lifetime to prove.

"Inspiration can positively change one's way of life."

"Quality or quantity, which one you are gonna choose..."

"Parenting is about presence, not presents!"

It's better to love someone you can't have than to have someone you can't love

"Knowledge talks, wisdom listens."

"Opportunities may arrive at the wrong time but they leave at the right time......their time."

"Opportunities may arrive at the wrong time but they leave at the right time......their time."

"Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present."

im choosing not u

2010-01-30T21:17:00.004+07:00

Beribu kata telah terucap
berjuta maksud kau sampaikan
bahwa tak hanya diriku,,
yang menjadi bunga hatimu
bahwa tak hanya diriku
yang berlari dalam pikiranmu
yang memanggil namamu

Aku bukanlah pelabuhan tempatmu bersandar
bersandar melepaskan kepenatan yang ada
yang hanya bersifat sementara

Namun aku laksana sebuah cayaha
Yang bersinar yg bisa menerangi jalanmu yg gelap,
Dengan rasa yg tulus sebagai energinya
yang di topang oleh sebuah kejujuran rasa

Dan dengan ratusan alasan mencari sebab
Dengan sebuah perbandingan....
hilangkan semua kebimbangan
tinggalkan saja diriku yang tak mungkin menunggu
menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti

jangan pernah memilih karna aku bukan lah pilihan
dimana kamu bisa dengan leluasa memilih
layaknya memilih sebuah lukisan
tanpa ada tangung jawab terhadap perawatannya

tak perlu kau memilihku
aku wanita bukan tuk dipilih
dan bukan menjadikan sebuah pilihan akhir

karena kebahagiaan itu bukan pilihan
Tapi konsekwensi dari setiap pilihan
bahagia dengan pilihan atau
pilihan yang membuat bahagia

pilihanku

2010-01-29T16:07:00.002+07:00

kau yang menjadi bayangku selama ini
yang selalu kudekap erat tanpa bisa kulepas,,
hingga waktu yang menjawab smua
selisih paham dan perbedaan pendapat antara kita
yang menjadikan dekapanku tak lagi erat,,,

namun entah mengapa smua itu terasa janggal dihatiku
ada hal yang kau rencanakan
entahlahh ini hanya perasaanku semata karena ingin mendapatkanmu kembali
Ataukah memang begitu adanya bahwa kau merencanakan sesuatu

terangkum semua hanya pada kata manis yang terikat diatas janji setia...
Yg ingin di ingkari dengan sejuta alasan
yg terbungkus indah dalam untaian kata
Adakah rasa di dalam sana rasa yg tulus rasa yg jujur
Dan rasa yg murni yg slama ini selalu di selimuti oleh berjuta rencana
yang membuat diriku kembali merangkul dan mendekapmu

namun itu tak lagi sama ketika pertama kali ku mendekapmu
ada bayang lain di hatiku yang merasuki begitu dalam
sesosok makhluk bernyawa yang indah yang mampu merenggangkan dekapanku terhadapmu
yang selama ini aku pikir hanya bisa dilepas oleh sebuah ikatan

auranya begitu terlihat jelas hingga mampu membunuh rasaku terhadapmu
yang telah aku bina dan kujaga selama ini menjadi rasa yang hambar
stiap dia tersenyum membuatku berhenti dan melupakan dunia nyata

namun janjiku tetap ku ucap padamu
aku memang ingin memilikimu pada awalnya namun
keinginan itu seakan luntur dan memudar menjadi sebuah keraguan
keraguan akan ucapan dibibirku akan janji setia
apakah ini hanya sebatas rasa keingintahuanku terhadap
apa yang terencana dan menjadi obsesiku slama ini
atau tanpa ingin tau lebih mengenai rencanamu karena diriku telah berpaling pada sosok lain

sosok yang menarik hatiku tuk mengetahui lebih jauh siapa dia,,
yang bukan hanya sbatas angan yg kelamaan
seperti yang terjadi selama ini
dan biarlah menjadi rahasia diantara smua
bahwa dialah yang mampu membuat aku jatuh cinta saat ini

andaikan aku sekarang bisa memilih,,
diantara kebimbangan ini
namun aku tak sanggup ,, tak mampu memilih

affair

2010-01-26T01:23:00.004+07:00

I’m like melody in your head
and every day is always replaying in ur mind,,
that u was say last night to me

okay u got “eight” point for that word,,,
the word that can make me fly high enough
but I got my “ten” point for my word
the word that can make u addicted so high to me
and u can’t do nothing

I know you want me so badly
and yes honestly I want u too,,

we are an affair,,
when ur lips come to my lips,,
and go down to the shoulder come to the neck and down,,

when ur hand around in my body
feel it ,, enjoy it,,

like u don’t want missing this chance
and I don’t have any space to breath

when the our body becoming one and bonded ,,
u got me every single in my body
we do again and again

this is the hottest affair that I ever mad,,,
the hottest kisses I ever had,,

to be perfect

2010-01-21T03:27:00.001+07:00

Tidak perlu sempurna
Aku hanya ingin berjalan mengalir layaknya air
Hanya menjadikan smua tanpa jarak tanpa celah
Tanpa batas yang hanya bisa memisahkan kita

Entah dari pengaruh luar
Entah dari kebohongan dan kemunafikan semata

Natural
Berjalan apa adanya
Tanpa dinding besar ke”gengsian”

And it will be perfect for me,,
When you keep your eyes upon me,
keep me in your sight,

Help me don the crooked road,
lead me to the light.
The road I'm on is dark,
I'm not sure if I know the way,

Yet with you right beside me,
I'm certain I won't stray.

Protect me from the world,
I know we'll make it through,
Give me all the strength I need.....
Let me lean on you

perfect

2010-01-15T05:25:00.002+07:00

Aku memang bukan orang yang peka
Aku memang bukan orang yang perasa

Aku memang tidak sama dengan lelaki lain
Yang bisa memberikan kamu setangkai mawar
Layaknya pria romantic
Yang bisa memberikan perhatian lebih
Layaknya ksatria kerajaan
aku hanya ingin nampak sempurna dihadapanmu

Aku hanya seorang pria biasa
Yang jatuh hati padamu
Yang hanya bisa memberikan cahaya saat kamu tersesat
Yang hanya bisa menyinari warnamu disaat redup
Yang hanya bisa menjadi imam dalam menempuh jalan yang kamu tuju

Kamu tetap menjadi yang pertama bagiku
Bukan yang kedua apalagi cadangan seperti orang bilang,,
How can I move on when I’m still in love with u ?

You are what u think you
Just trust me this time
That I need u , that I really need u to part of my life,,
Part of my destination

Just trust me this time
U may be the mirror of my dreams
U are My destination
That I really want u ,and spend the time together,,
Until the end of my life,

i know u want me,,, pitt bull

2010-01-11T23:09:00.000+07:00

Ha, ha
It's Mr. 305 checkin' in for the remix
You know that S 75 Street Brazil?
Well this year's gon' be called Calle Ocho
Ha, ha

Que ola cata, que ola omega
And this how we gon' do it, dale

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha
(Ha ha ha)

One two three four
Uno do' tres cuatro

Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?
Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?

Si es verdad que tu eres guapa
Yo te voy a poner gozar
Tu tiene la boca grande
Dale ponte a jugar, como?

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro
(Woo-ooo!)

6 to tha clock, on my way to the top uh
Pit got it locked from brews to the locker
All I.P uh, big and packer
That he's not, but damn he's hot

Label flop but Pit won't stop
Got her in the car, quit playin' with his, como?
Watch him make a movie like Albert Hitchcock, ha enjoy me

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha
(Ha ha ha)

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro

Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?
Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?

Si es verdad que tu eres guapa
Yo te voy a poner gozar
Tu tiene la boca grande
Dale ponte a jugar, como?

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro
(Woo-ooo!)

Mami got an ass like a donkey, with a monkey
Look like King Kong, welcome to the crib
305, that's what it is
With a woman down here the s*** don't play games

They off the chain, and they let her do everything
And anything, hit tha thing
And they love to get it in, get it on her
All night long, dale

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha
(Ha ha ha)

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro

Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?
Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?

Si es verdad que tu eres guapa
Yo te voy a poner gozar
Tu tiene la boca grande
Dale ponte a jugar, como?

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro

Baby you can get it, if you with it we can play
Baby I got cribs, I got condos we can stay
Even got a king size mattress we can lay
Baby I don't care, I don't care, what they say

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha

I know you want me, want me
You know I want cha, want cha
I know you want me
You know I want cha, want cha
(Ha ha ha)

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro

Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?
Rumba, si
Ella quiere su Rumba, como?

Si es verdad que tu eres guapa
Yo te voy a poner gozar
Tu tiene la boca grande
Dale ponte a jugar, como?

One two three four
Uno dos tres cuatro

so attempted -continue 2-

2010-01-02T04:07:00.002+07:00

Tidak ada perasaan special hari ini
Aku hanya akan pergi bermain malam ini
Tidak ada yang special pada awalnya

Sampai aku bertemu seorang pria
pria yang cukup membuatku tak berhenti menatapnya
untuk sesaat aku pada pertemuan pertama

sadar akan pandangannya terhadapku
yang kemudian membuat aku tertarik untuk mengetahui lebih tentang dia
Hingga aku tau kebenaran
Kau sudah tidak sendiri lagi

Entahlah aku tidak mengerti akan dirimu
memberikan arti namun sulit kutebak
Entah karena kamu memang tidak menyadarinya
Atau karena kamu bersembunyi dalam kemunafikan hati
Atau karena memang tidak ada percikan rasa didirimu
Yang berarti aku salah mengartikan,

Aku tau Tak mungkin bagimu tuk berpaling dari sisi cintamu,,
Yang membelengumu,,
kucoba mengerti alur dari cerita kita
kisah manis denganmu

aku tidak pernah menginginkan menjadi seperti itu
menjadi seorang yang berada berdiri diantara hubungan 2 manusia

namun aku hanya merasakan apa yang aku rasakan
bahwa aku memang merasakan perasaan itu
perasaan akan memilikimu secara utuh

aku tau perasaan itu salah,,
namun aku tidak bisa mengatur perasaan ini,,
inilah adanya,,,menjadi sebuah dilemma,,
menjadi sangat complicated,,

mungkin memang baiknya aku harus pergi
becaming secret admire and I will keep u in my memories,,
Don’t close your eyes,,

namun mengapa harus memungkiri cinta
mencari akhir yang semestinya
Biarkan lah hati yg bicara
Diantara rasa yang akan membawa

Pada suatu kejujuran,,
Tanpa ada yang di rugikan,,
Bukan dia dan bukan juga aku,,

Karena semakin ku lebih dekat denganmu
kau biarkan cinta kita hanyut dalam asmara yang terlanjur terjadi,,
Dengan semua ketidaksengajaan dan dengan semua kesengajaan yang terjadi
Aku semakin ingin bersamamu
maafkan aku telah mengangumu,,

quote end of the 2009

2009-12-31T05:58:00.000+07:00

"ignorance is a big mistake."

"Technology provides solutions to nearly all problems of man"

"do the planets have a direct influence on our day to day activities and our lives"

"Often people blame their luck... But they forget it's not a matter of chance, rather it's a matter of choice...."

"It's not a good idea to start dating a friend."
""Things may eventually go haywire!""

"Love enters the heart without introductions"

"Often its the simple things that make us happiest."

"sometimes the biggest lie is saying you don't care."
""even when its killing you inside.""

"Getting angry is very easy...but staying calm is an art/skill mastered by very few."

"Being honest and true sometimes can take the person you love away from you..."

"Lets make a promise to take them along & never let them feel"
""bad about themselves .......""

"One should always laugh when they can...Apologize when they should...and let go of what they can't change..."

"what you cannot have...you cannot resist"

"If u cannot have what u love, start loving what u have!!!!"

"love has it's own time, season and own reason, you cant ask it to stay, you can only embrace it, "
""as it comes & be glad that for a moment in your life it was yours.""

"Sympathy has dual effects or two sides for one coin , it can be seen both positively and negatively by different people"

"Good times.become good memories.Bad times,become good lessons...."

"Insults should be written in the sand, and praises carved in stone."

"old habits die hard"

Love is like a war - easy to start, hard to end

Love is not enough to have a strong, lasting relationship. the secret with it is to TRUST the one you love and accept his/her weaknesses or mistakes. It's not how many times you have forgiven. But how you have shown understanding and honesty.

Even if it&;s the end of your relationship, doesnt mean that its the end of the world. Be strong, to make a new beggining. Rather to sit and cry about the past.

Sometimes, you don't realize how much you care for someone until he/she stops caring for you

To love someone who can never love you back is like striving to get a perfect score in a non-recorded exam

if someone wants to be a part of your life they'll make an effort to be in it. so don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay..

it is not wrong to love your friend unless you're asking too much of her time and you're acting as if you're committed with each other.

one day, you have to wake up and realize some things won't last forever.. so when it's done! it's done., move on., ^

Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for her/him, even if it means swallowing the sad reality that, the best just isn't you."

"People Change constantly , it's just not always how we want them to change."

"Stop looking for happiness! Its right there...inside you!"

"If love is not taught in the home.. it's difficult to learn it anywhere else..."

"Expectations are hard to meet....!!!"

"Insults should be written in the sand, and praises carved in stone."

"old habits die hard"

When you've found a reason to walk away, never look back... Just keep walking. It's better to get lost moving on than to get stuck and stranded broken

Falling in love is not finding the perfect person. It's learning to love an imperfect person perfectly

If the heart is willing to love, it will find a thousand ways... otherwise, it will find a thousand alibis..

"Love not because of who the person is, but because of who you are when you're with her/him.

Secretly loving someone is the best thing that could hurt the most

"if we could get all we ever wished for............ da world wont be this fun"

"everyone needs motivation...even a motivator...."
""im just saying...;)""
"The best thing about year end is that you can restart all over again: new rules, new goals...new you."
"if we could get all we ever wished for............ da world wont be this fun"

"The best thing about year end is that you can restart all over again: new rules, new goals...new you."

"new year is not the only begining of sum thing new............ it's when ever some one start his life in a new way"

so attempted,,

2009-12-28T03:33:00.001+07:00

Semua orang bilang dia manis,,
Semua orang bilang dia cantik,,
Semua orang,, membicarakan tentang wanita itu

Aku tidak begitu menanggapinya dengan serius
Karna bagiku wanita yang cantik adalah wanita yg kumiliki sekarang ini
Ya aku sudah memiliki seseorang,,

Sampai akhirnya aku bertemu dengan wanita itu
Wanita yang sudah banyak dibicarakan orang
Ah,, wanita itu tidak manis seperti yang dibicarakan
Wanita itu tidak cantik seperti yang dibayangkan,,,
Tapi wanita itu begitu menarik

Bahkan bisa menarik pandanganku yang sempat buta
Matanya begitu tajam hingga merasuk kedalam relung hatiku
Dia berbeda,, dan aku merasakan tantangan yang begitu dalam

Dia tidak cantik dia tidak manis,,
Tapi dia lebih dari itu,, dia sangat menarik,,
Ahh wanita begitu merasuki alam mimpiku,
Wanita itu "menganggu” lamunanku,,

Baiknya ku pergi,, tinggalkan dirimu,, sejauh mungkin,,
Untuk melupakan ,, untuk mengindari
dirimu yang begitu menggoda,,
dirimu yang meluluhkan jiwaku,,

namun tak bisa bagiku menjauh darimu
tak bisa ku beranjak dari pandanganmu
tak mudah bagiku beranjak dari hadapanmu,,

aku ingin terus berbicara denganmu
aku ingin terus bersamamu,,
aku sungguh menikmatinya
tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
teralu indah perasaan ini

Inginku bukan jadi temanmu
namun aku mohon jangan menggodaku wahai wanita,,
karena aku terlalu lemah untuk kau goda,,
karena kau penguasa hatiku saat ini,,

Tapi aku sadar aku telah memliki seseorang yang sudah mengisi hariku
Entahlah apa ini keputusan yang terbaik atas “kepemilikan” diriku akan orang lain,,
Oohhh Wanita itu masih saja menggodaku ,,
Maafkan aku sayang ,, aku tergoda olehnya,,

song of the month

2009-12-27T00:53:00.001+07:00

Pejamkan kedua matamu
Sambutlah hangat dalam pelukku
Denganmu aku ingin
memulai smua hasrat yg getarkan jiwa

Akupun menginginkamu
Berbagi smua rasa yang meraja
Tak perlu terucap kata
Biarkan mengalir apa adanya

Biarlah cinta membawa kita kesana
Dalam buai ini hanya kita berdua
Untuk selamanya atau hanya sesaat
Yang kutahu kini kita jatuh cinta

Katakan smua maumu
Malam ini smua tentangmu
Bawalah ku jauh
Ke alam khayalmu yg terindah
yang pernah kau bayangkan

back to reff

Ku tahu kau pun merasakan
Kita terbawa suasana
Terungkaplah smua rasa
bila kita memang sedang jatuh cinta

confirm

2009-12-25T13:58:00.003+07:00

in My eyes you're so perfect
Until there is no gap at all
But it was only a reflection
When I closed my eyes,,
I was blind,,

And when I opened my eyes,,
You're not as perfect as I imagined,,
I was wrong yes I'm wrong

Want to angry, like it was shouted
But couldn't
I'm just still looking at the fact

Too many lies have
Too much hypocrisy
This heart is too sore

I'm not strong, as seen
I was too weak,,,
I don't know just can't understand
as I know I just misjudged
Leave me here alone
And I try to understand his situation
It's just not supposed to be like this,,,

biarkan cinta

2009-12-24T01:42:00.002+07:00

Tak bisa ku menghindar dari pikiran yang selalu datang
Malam ini Smua tentang kamu
Kau buat ku lupa akan batasan waktu
Lupa akan perbedaan

Setiap kali kau menatapku itu memberi arti untukku
Berdebar saat kumemandangmu ,tandanya aku menginginkamu
Dan semudah itu hatiku luluh karena senyumanmu
Ku terlena dalam pelukanmu yang terlanjur terjadi

Kubiarkan cinta ini hanyut dalam asmara yg tak pasti
Salahkah bila ku disini tak peduli keadaannya

Tak perlu aku bicara
Aku tau kaupun merasakan
Kita terbawa suasana
Namun akupun menginginkanmu

Menghabiskan waktu bersama dan memesan “Hot chocolate” untuk berdua
Berbicara tertawa sepanjang malam
Biarkanlah cinta yang membawa kita kesana
Untuk sesaat atau untuk selamanya

sebuah catatan

2009-12-16T04:02:00.002+07:00

Sebuah catatan

Dan ketika kusadari sudah
tak selalu indah cinta yg ada
tidak selamanya berakhir sesuai harapan
tersenyum simpul dalam raut muka
namun menangis pada hati kecil

pahit seperti sebuah secangkir kopi hitam yang ku minum
namun hanya dapat merengguk aroma wangi kopi yang semerbak
tanpa kudapat merasakan nikmatnya rasa
hampa seperti berada dalam sebuah ruang kamar yang nyaman
yang hanya dapat kulihat indahnya hiasan yang terpampang
namun tak dapat kuhirup oksigen didalamnya

mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumiliki?
aku tau ,, itu bukan untuk aku ,,
tak perlu kau ulangi lagi
kopi itu,,, ruang itu milik dia

akan Kucoba melupakanmu karna ku tau kau bukan milikku ,
akan ku relakan kulepaskan hati ini dan tanpa harus ku berdusta,,
Sebab rasaku tlah mati untuk memulai kembali padamu
Bahwa cinta ini tak lagi sama ketika kamu memilih dia

Aku hanya memaksa masuk ruang kosong hampa itu dan memimun kopi yang tersedia
tanpa kusadari ada ruang lain yang memang terbuka untuk ku datangi
yang memang disediakan untuk aku
bahkan dengan rasa lain pada kopi
dan dengan campuran warna yang ada pada dinding ruang kamar itu
namun aku belum mendatanginya
belum dan bukan tidak akan ,,,

Dan ku harap ku dimengerti mengapa ,,

mother love,, women care

2009-12-11T16:36:00.003+07:00

Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom?

"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said,"And you never will, but that's OK".......

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say......

The little boy grew up and became a man,still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?"

GOD answered......
"When I made woman,
I decided she had to be special.I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet,made her arms gentle enough to give comfort...
I gave her the inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection
that many times will come even from her own children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going and take care of her family and friends,
even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue without complaining....
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly....

She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and
to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears....

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart....
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.... unfalteringly ....

For all of this hard work,I also gave her a tear to shed. It is hers to use whenever needed and !
it is her only weakness....When you see her cry, tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.

decide to

2009-12-10T23:52:00.000+07:00

Decide to
Now I feel that I can't breathe
I feel that I can't be my self
I can’t be strong when I'm alone
Don't you dare treat me.
like you don't know me
maybe it better for me to leave u
leave u so far away
I'd try to get you out of my mind
& many times I try to step on the ground
when now you're out of my world, don't know where to find you
but shape of you, taste of you, smell of you
Spinning in my head..
I’m Goin crazy just because of you!!
You are the one that means a lot for my life
But I don’t know do I means a lot for u too
You control me, you control me..
I feel that u control me
Take me out of here!!
I wanna be free,,
I just can’t stand without a hope
Coz’ I’ll stand for hope that I call new life,,
With or without you,,

blame myself that u re not into me

2009-12-05T00:02:00.002+07:00

I’m already thinking about you
already hoping for you
So long, I've blame my self dreamin' 'bout you..

but I never regret it
I just can’t standing strong when u already love her
The woman that I know very well

U are always there when she was there,,
IF u know what I’m feeling
IF u understand what I’m feel

I’m try to forget u because I know that you’re not into me
the heart its BROKEN
its hurt to know the truth when I’m not ready

Even I never know the truth..
Even I never know if the feeling can change when we meet
But it can’t be the same feeling

Because she is my best friend
u are my dreaming

but I already both of them

and now I’m Stop to hoping again,,,

I decide to end of this story because my feel was die to accept it

bayangmu

2009-11-30T03:44:00.002+07:00

Disini aku berdiri mencoba tuk mengerti
Mengapa bayangmu selalu ada dalam pikiranku
Mengapa semua tampak jelas ketika jarak ini semakin dekat

Kau buat aku mencari membuat aku bertanya akan rasa ini
Akankah smua sama ketika pada saat kita bertemu

Seandainya kau tau betapa aku sangat inginkan bertemu denganmu
Dan ungkapkan apa yg ada di dalam isi hatiku
Namun akankah bisa kunyatakan rasa ini pada saat bertemu dengan mu
Tak ada logika memang
Ini memang gila, tapi inilah cinta

Dan tanpa ku sadari aku masih disini menunggumu
Entah sampai kapan kuharus menunggumu
Menunggu hingga aku tak pernah bisa berhenti memikirkanmu
Dan tidak bisa tepiskan bayangmu
Berharap semua akan terbalas pada saatnya nanti
Berharap cinta ini kan bersatu

Tapi Sayangnya kau belum juga ada dihadapanku,,,
Hanya bayangmu yang tampak jelas dalam pikirannku

Kau pikir aku disini untuk siapa?
Sejauh ini ku datang untuk siapa?
Sangat ingin kukatakan
Ini untukmu

Я улыбаюсь

2009-11-23T00:26:00.004+07:00

Ты нашел меня когда солнца не могла на меня светить
Ты даёшь хорошое ощушение
Ты принесёшь свет когда у меня плохие запоминания
Ты светёшь мои дни в одиночестве
Как мне нравится время которая я провожу с тобой
но иногда ты Становишся несмелом
я не знаю почему
и я себя спрашываю
Говно такое
Я это чувствую ещё
Как ребёнок
забавный, отвратительный , глупый
это меня веселеет ежедневны
больщее яркий
даже на минуточку
Я думаю что сайду сума
Ты внущаешь меня с улыбкой на тебя
И сейчас я улыбаюсь

Тест письмо

2009-11-23T00:24:00.001+07:00

Здравствуй , до свидания
как дела аю? Спасибо,Хорошо или нормальна или плохо...
всегда повтрирят только вот слова
вчера,cейчас или завтра
я бурию
многа слова но я не понимаю
потому что я плохо запоминаю
если человек говорите но-русски
я не понимаю
я сайду сума
я хочу иди домой но я не могу
скажитие пожалуйста, что я делаю сейчас ???!!

quote of the month

2009-11-05T02:01:00.011+07:00

"Don't let frustration rule and ruin your life..."
""Self pity, more than anything, interferes with positive actions and moving forward. ""

only if we meet strangers, we can make friends."

"Life is all about managing different kinds of people and circumstances...."

Anyone dressing up for Halloween? I am going as an angel, what about you?"

"One of the most wonderful things in life is knowing someone you love is loving you back."

"Accept the people with their strong and weak points, no body is perfect, humans R blend of different diverse characters"

never rush in making commitment in a relationship..."
""believe it or not...? find out urself if it's real or just a crush...before making a big step...CRUSH only lasts for few months...!!!! i think so...""

"If every story has a happy ending we might not learn."
""cos if the story ends happily we might not turn back and think which prevents us from learning.""

"Jealousy is the only vice that gives no pleasure. "

"Confession is the beginning of forgiveness."

"Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else"

"lets forget the past and focus on future

don t wait for the judgment day cause it happen everyday till ur death

""Anger and rudeness are a weak persons' false show of strength but politeness and cool mind reflects dignity"
""and strength of a strong person"""

"Temptation... Many of us are weak to it. Only some of us are able to resist it with or without help from others"

"Every new day is another chance to change your life."

"Human relationships give life to our life...."
""I'm talking about the "healthy" ones.""

"Fair and credible media is badly needed to ensure a true globalization."
""Killings, injuries, terror, fear, injustice and unresolved issues are seen throughout the world as a result of lies and fabrications of the irresponsible media.""

"There are those you want... but can never have"
""and those that you can have.. you don't exactly want!""

"The completeness we sense in life comes not always from the external but from what we feel and sense within...."

"The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a man's determination."

ate controls who walks into ur life but u decide who u let walkout, who u let stay and who u refuse to let go."

"Your body language speaks your mind........"

"Thanksgiving day...Grace isn't a little prayer you chant before receiving a meal. It's a way to live"
""And to all my Muslim friends Happy Eid to you and all your family … wish you many blessings returns … ... Happy Eidu ! May Allah bless you richly""

"do the planets have a direct influence on our day to day activities and our lives"

"Often people blame their luck... But they forget it's not a matter of chance, rather it's a matter of choice...."

"It's not a good idea to start dating a friend."
""Things may eventually go haywire!""

the journey

2009-11-05T02:00:00.000+07:00

It's not only all the journeys i've had,
not about dinners or movies i watched,
not even hugs & kisses i made..

It's all about destiny i sail,
a happiness i rides,
and the experience i walks..

As long as i breath,
Memories are remains,
hopes will remains
happiness shall remains
only hates are beaten..

even the memories play very confusing role...
and it make me cry when i remember the time i laughed together
but I believed the best way to pay for a lovely moment is to enjoy it
and you will wait for me to enjoy that time again together
and it will be more fun than ever

it just a way that I choose
for be real
to be responsible with my decision
and back with my promise

just wait
and pray for me,,

u always have a pieces of my heart
I always love u

dedicated for my family
for my best friends as my brother n my sista

word

2009-11-04T02:32:00.001+07:00

if u feel the same with me,,
,,,zing ,,,
U’r not continue that word
Just say its wrong n u can’t continue that word because u didn’t find the right word
And if u know the word,, u promise that u will tell me,,,
that word ,,

that word that can make me stuck in this heart
even I go so far but u still have a pieces
because that word make me wonder
there is always a reason for every unanswered question
don’t know is there any word ongoing ?
or he just leaving off the sentence
shall I go ?
if am I wrong if I stay here and don’t care about the condition ?
cos’ The best way to say goodbye is Never turn back
But I back to say with word
Even it's not better than saying it in words only
But It make me enough to finish it
to waiting u so far,,
is there’s possible to u to understand? To realized?
(adakah engkau rasakan mengapa tak kau nyatakan? sampai kapan ku bertahan menantikan kepastian ?tanpa sepatah kata ku ucapkan padamu,, sampai kapan by MnD)

quote of the month

2009-10-29T23:19:00.001+07:00

""The best way to pay for a lovely moment is to enjoy it.""

"“It is never too late to be what you might have been.”"

"The real battles we fight are on the inside..!"

"Living is the art of getting used to what we didn't expect!!!"

"Never put out the WELCOME mat for an EVIL thought."

"WELL DONE IS BETTER THAN WELL SAID"

"EID IS THE DAY OF FRIENDSHIP WITH EVERY ONE, EVERY WHERE."
"“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.”"

"Tough times never last, but tough people do."

"Some people lose their health getting wealth and then lose their wealth gaining health.."

"The highest hurdle to cross is your own mindset ....."

"We have to explore ourselves to learn our own capabilities and limitations"

"Sometimes you should stop running behind what you want the most and let it come to you.................."

"Your thoughts cause your feelings"

A men ask his mom, "How can I find the right women for me?" And the answer, "Don't worry about finding the right women, concentrate on becoming the right men." HA!

"Just like the weather, people have the ability to change."

"sometimes two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together"

"Nobody can hurt me without my permission." - Mahatma Gandhi"

"Give people a second chance, because no one is perfect."

"Only Self Transformation leads to World Transformation.."

"Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you"

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new...."

"Being frank doesn't mean that you have to hurt others !"

"there is always a reason for every unanswered question....."

"it's better to be the giver than a receiver... the one who helps than the one who needs help..."

"don't worry about failure.worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try"

"sometimes not knowing is so much better, than knowing too much..."

"What man's mind can create, man's character can control."

"Never let anyone steal ur joy.."

"anger and love have no limits; we should learn how to control both feelings..."

"Invest in your health - the best investment ever!"
""I notice people are more concerned with their possessions, insuring them, looking after their new cars, new toys, yet do nothing for the No 1 most important thing in their life - their body. Once we lose our health it's gone, not replaceable, possessions are!""

"searching for happiness is the first step for unhappiness"

"Love can be described in a million different ways but nothing beats experiencing it."
""Can't beat that glow that emanates from within and radiates from you.""

"Memories play very confusing role... it make u cry when u remember the time u laughed together....."

"Time is a healer of hurt."

"Never ignore a gut feeling, but never believe that it's enough."

"Dont worry about the people from your past...cause there is a reason they did not make it to your future!"

"Only mutual respect between humans can bring them closer"

"If u love sumone...show it too ...it's far better than saying it in words only."

"Understanding every one is not possible,understand yourself thoroughly first."

"The best way to say goodbye : Never turn back"

"Walk the 'walk of life' with dignity."

"Don't let frustration rule and ruin your life..."
""Self pity, more than anything, interferes with positive actions and moving forward. ""

song of the month okt 09

2009-10-02T14:16:00.001+07:00

Banyu Biru feat. Artasya Sudirman - Andai Kata

*
Oh Andai kau berada disamping
Kan ku peluk selalu
Oh Andai kata kau tak tinggalkan diriku
Kan ku belai selalu

Reff:
I wish you were here with me
I wish you were here with me
To hold me tight be with me
I wish you were here with me
I wish you were here with me
To love me and complete me

**
Hanya waktu yang tahu
Kapan kau akan ada disisiku
Sekian lama kurindu
Entah kapan akan kembali dihatiku
Tapi kau tlah pergi

Oh andai kata oh seharusnya
Kau memang milikku
Oh andai kata oh seharusnya
Kau memang milikku

Back to Reff

Kuingin kau tahu sayangku
Kucinta padamu selalu
Oh bilakan aku selalu
Bercinta denganmu

Back to **

Tapi kau tlah pergi
Tapi kau tlah pergi

Back to *

TIME LIMIT

2009-10-01T10:07:00.001+07:00

I can’t stop the time
Even just a minute
And time closer
That can make me more panic,,

My mind so complicated
deadline pursue my

Can I take a rest for a moment??
I can’t thinking ..
And I can’t do anything,,
GOD,, help me to get out of this situation,,

Its just because I not ready
Or it because I was to panic?
when I remember, and imagine my absence.
It makes me very sad
believe me. i gonna miss u

so Speechless

Its just a feelin

2009-09-30T10:38:00.003+07:00

Boy
I remind you again
Like u never lost in my thoughts
When I see the thing bout you
It’s the same thing that make me change my mind

U make me asking
Asking about this feeling
Oh boy,,,
Why I’m so obsess with you
So obsess
Until I never worried for nothing

From your head to your toe
I just gotta let you know
That I wanna have you

I’m sick inside without a sense of feelin
Tired of living like a blind
Coz when I beside you
I can see the world even when I’m blind,,

sebuah cerita sebuah kisah

2009-09-25T20:48:00.004+07:00

malam ini,,
smoga menjadi malam yang tak terlupakan
kataku berkata dalam hati,,,
sambil berias didepan kaca sembari menunggu teman menjemput ,,
teman ya kita hanya berteman

* tin tin tin *
waww suara tanda mobil sudah berada depan rumah
bergegas aku keluar tidak lupa melihat tuk terakhir kali penampilanku dalam sebuah kaca
fuuhhhh deg-deg-an hatiii ini,,

dia : haii selamat malam
aku : haiii malam,,, *sambil melemparkan senyum terindah* walo dalam hati ini detak jantung berdetak kencang. tapi aku mencoba bersikap biasa,,,
aku : so how? berangkat?
dia : oowww okeh sudah siap-kah?
aku : yup * sambil mengenggukkan kepala*
mom,,, aku pergiiii

masuklah kita kedalam sebuah mobil
hanya berdua..
fuihhhh saltingnyaaaaa akuu,, groginya diriku dihadapannya,,
berharap hari ini bisa berjalan sesuai rencana
lancar, menyenangkan , dan unforgetable,, i hopee so,,

bercengrama, mengobrol,,,
sampai akhirnya tibalah kita dalam suatu pesta itu,,
pesta yang cukup mewah

kami berjalan beriringan bersama memasuki altar pesta tersebut
dan tanpa kusadari smuaaa mata tertuju pada kita,,
ya aku dan dia
entah mengapa,,
sebagian memandang kasian , sebagian memandang penuh arti , sebagian memandang entahlahhh apa yang mereka pikirkan

gerahh rasanyaaaa dipandang seperti ituu
rasanyaaaa ingin sekali aku menghilang pada saat itu
tapii aku tak bisa memutar balik
hanya bisa berjalan lurus bersama dia
hahahaha ya karna alasan seseorang disebelahku aku bertahan disini
terlalu picik memang tapi inilah kenyataannya

dia yang meyakinkanku tuk tetap bertahan disini dan berjalan bersama
dan berjanji untuk tetap menemani aku sampai acara pesta ini berakhir,,
ahhh senangnya aku pada saat itu ..

ya dia memang sudah tauu kalau pesta ini akan "mengundang" banyak "mata"
dengan kedatangan kita berdua..
ahh biarkanlahh
pada saat itu aku hanya mau menikmati malam itu
entah menikmati pesta itu bersama dia atau hanya sekedar menikmati dia berada disampingku,,,

sampai dia menyadarkanku pada lamunanku
dia : please wait for a minute. u just sit and wait me to come,, okay?
aku : uhmm okay...
dia : do want me to give u something?
aku : uhmm bring me a coffee ?
dia : ok * dengan senyumnya yang menggetarkan hati*
,,,,,,,
after 5 minute
dia : this coffee i give it to u for ur request and this flower i give it to u because u perform great today ...
aku : *hanya bisa terbegong bengong dgn ucapannya dan dgn kopi dan bunganya*
dia : heyyy you,,,
aku : ooo im sorry great for what?
dia : i dont know u want to look great today for this "party" or u want to look great today for me,, but for to be honest.. for me you look so great today,,,
aku : thank u. im so appreciated for ur flower n everything
(dalam hati aku berkata) for to be honest i do this because i go to the party with u,, its just because u walk beside me,, because of u,,,

deannnnnnn,,,
terdengar sayup sayup orang memanggilku
deannnnnnnnn,,,,
sekali lagi terdengar
deannnnnnnnnnn!!!
kali ini cukup lantang

ahhhhh
aku terbangun dalam lamunanku
aku mendapati diriku berada dalam ruangan pesta
berdiri memegani secangkir kopi
ahhhh aku hanya berkahyal

teman2 : ngapain c? dipanggilin ga nyaut2,, ayoo kita pulang
ya ternyata seorang teman memanggilku tuk mengajakku tuk pulang
ya aku stg bersama teman ,,,
ya aku masih punya banyak teman ,,,

aku meninggalkan altar pesta itu bersama mereka dan menuju parkiran masing-masing
kita berpisah disini

pfuhhhhh
kuakui lamunan itu terasa begitu nyataaa
kulalui jalan tol yang masih sepi
lurussss,,, dan sendiri

yaaa baru ku sadari aku kembali sendirii,,,
dan lamunan itu tak pernah menjadi nyata,,,
bahkan di dalam mimpi aku tak pernah berani mengatakannya ,,
sendiri dan menikmati kesendirian
irulah pilihanku ...

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini ..

ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

quote of the month

2009-09-15T08:21:00.001+07:00

"Don't regret, because at that time, it was exactly what you wanted."

"don't make the same mistake twice"

"The character of a man is known from his conversations."

"The best way to achieve your dreams is to wake up from sleep"

"An argument always interrupts a discussion."

"One form of loving is when you just want the best for that person whether it includes you or not."

"the difference between possible and impossible lies in a person's determination"

"The more you expect, the more you get disappointed in life."

"Make moments memories for you, and memorable for everyone else."

""Everybody wants to have a loving and caring person next to them. They dream of it, they are looking for it, but when they find it, they take it for granded, they get annoyed by it and then ignorance begins.""

"Write your Sad times in Sand, Write your Good times in Stone"

"Forgiveness & Apology is not weakness"

"It is not the receiver that is blessed, but it is the giver"

"Love all, trust a few. "
""We look forward to the time when the Power of Love will replace the Love of Power. Then will our world know the blessings of peace""

"You will never "find" time for anything. If you want time you must make it."

"Love is possible after friendship, but friendship is not possible after love."

"Accept people and situations as they are"

"Never share your secrets with anybody. If you cannot keep secret with you, don't expect that other will keep it."
""It will destroy you.""

"Not all relations are eternal, but all of them bring something into our lives while they are there"

"Our everyday companions aren't necessarily our real friends"

"I may not get to see you as often as I like
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night
But deep in my heart I truly know
you're the one that I love
and I can't let you go"

"You left me,
but you cannot leave my heart
I hold you there,
with or without your will
No matter where you go, you will be part
Of me, my dearest friend and lover still..."

song of the month september 2009

2009-09-01T14:48:00.001+07:00

coba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan,
janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan, dari apa yang dijalankan,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
buktikan dan buatLAH aku percaya bahwa kita bisa,
mewujudkan bahagia,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

wohoho.. dudududu…
wohoho.. dudududu…

yang ku inginkan..
satu tujuan..
sebuah kenyataan..
bukan impian..
bukan harapan..
bukan alasan..
satu kepastian..

coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..

agree and disagree for this month

2009-08-24T11:32:00.001+07:00

"Feelings...to express them or hide them"

"Forgiveness isn't always easy....but you forgive people not for their benefit. You do it for your own benefit"

"When you meet the right person every other thing comes easily"

"Hate is such a waste of our energy dont waste your time on negative thoughts and feelings..........."

"Do not be a slave to your mind."

"One of the hardest things in life isn't grabbing onto things, it's letting them go"

"forgive but dont forget"

"Journey becomes indefinite when you remain undecided about your Destiny..."

"When a person finds no peace within himself or herself, it is useless to seek it elsewhere. "

"A simple way to be fulfilled in a relationship is to express your need & listen to the other's need...."

"There is never a wrong time to do right things.."

"Success is to get what you want, luck is to keep what you get."

"The three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions. "

"Over time, our material possessions become an integral part of our identity"

"Maturity doesnt come with age, it comes with awareness, experience and knowledge."

"Any day you do not learn something new is a day you have wasted"

"Try and fail, but don't fail to try"

"DON'T EVER LOOK BACK .. CHANCES ARE ALWAYS IN FRONT OF YOU"

"Every relationship has a name, a level and respect.Difficult to understand the difference required to handle each ."

tears

2009-08-11T13:55:00.002+07:00

love,,
love not definite between 2 people was falling in love
love not definite between 2 people with different gender
between man and woman

love is so large
love for best friend
love for family
love for a dream

and when that love test
in two different good choice
bout selfish and bout mother feeling

its my dream
i wait so long for this and coming to my life
im just walking my way
but when it coming why i must to let it go?

the most person with a big hope & strength
and a part of her has grown in me
mom,,
trust me i always wanna make u happy
i wanna make you smile

but mom,,
i just want u to know
look at me i have a dream
i have a my own way
to realized

even this chance will left me,
but my dream cannot leave from my heart
the more i feel
the more i see in everything that passion me
the more i feel
the more i believe in everything
makes me want to live

i just don't to be hide and break a silence
to looking expectations then just can make me dissapointed in the end
i never thought that I'm so strong

and mom
how do i know the best if i never try
if this ur decision
your feeling d best for me
i just don't wanna make u hurt anymore again
even it can make me hurt
and make my tears fall down

i really love u

the way i am

2009-08-07T08:11:00.003+07:00

song of the month agustus2009

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

INGRID MICHAELSON -the way i am-

i guest

2009-08-04T10:44:00.005+07:00

i dont remember what i feel
when that moment

the moment that can make me so up and down
my heart screaming when u are here
every time u come and beside me

to much memorable to forget it
coz' to much clear ur face in my mind
i wanna keep that but u're still in my dream

like a water
when i breathless
you come to make feel relieved my throat
and then u flowing away n leave me
always like that

and every time u did again
my heart still beat so fast
n i can't keep that feeling

but now the beat slowest than before
coz its only make me tired
no more drama
no more feeling

i guest ,,
i guest is enough

hold me tight

2009-07-31T11:09:00.005+07:00

when this heart start to open
I’ve finally found you
and you come into my life
even with a space even with a different character

i love you
for everything in you

but now you’re running down to the road
left me, hiding something,
pain inside this heart and kept some secret
let me know everything
stared from my eyes

I am trapped in this silly situation
I'm really tired, I cant move anymore
I tried to find him

I just want the real man
who's not to be hiding
who's not to be foolish
but who's cares more
who's love me so

I cant find my way back home
waiting for a ride
I close my eyes, I hope I can see your smile and hold me tight
please,,

when u love someone

2009-07-31T11:05:00.008+07:00

song of the month for july 2009

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever but you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true

I used to hide and watch you from a distance
And I knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer
At least to say “Hello”
And I can’t stand to wait ‘till night is coming to my life

When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true

I never thought that Im so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up, just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way

When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true

endah n resha -when u love someone-

where i go to landing?

2009-07-24T11:24:00.005+07:00

i start my vacation
with my preparation
i bring my bag and a lot of commodity

going by a plane
travel by my self
I like to be around the world

and i already to feel many country and city
I already done a half around the world
but i not yet to find the best destination
i ever come

like a ways of love
the ways of look a man
going out by plane with somebody
and always make me so fly high

but we never know how many times we should be transit
we never know how many times we must to get broken heart
we never know when we are in the destination
like as we never know when we found the soul mate

and i start to ended my vacation
to get bearings my last destination as like at home
comfort and make me warm
in another half of the world
where i go to landing this plane?

waiting

2009-07-24T10:57:00.004+07:00

yesterday we are friend
yesterday we laugh together as friend
yesterday we are friend
its yesterday

now
u are still be my friend
but everything change
as a change when i see u that day
u are not only be my friend for laugh
but u becaming more than friend for me

and tomorrow
i will see u for the first time as a couple

sometimes i feel so weird
sometimes i feel so funny
and sometimes i feeling thats what i want

but how the real feel?
i never know

but i want to know how that feel
how ur way to make me comfort to be with u
how ur way to hug me so deeply,,,

and i'm waiting when that day comes

2009-07-23T14:15:00.003+07:00

1 bulan kita bersama
selama itu kita saling mengenal satu sama lain
1 bulan kita bersama
mungkin terlalu singkat
tapi tidak terlalu singkat untuk mencintaimu

aku sedih dan melamunkanmu
mataku memandang sebuah kekosongan
tidakkah kau merasa
Dibalik karya yang tak bernyawa
Dapatkah kau rasa
dibalik setiap kata yang aku ucap

Kau mengisiku seperti halnya aku yang melengkapimu

Setapak demi setapak kutelurusi jalan cintaku
Penuh debu dan kerikil yang tajam
Kakiku tak sesakit luka dihatiku
ketika kau meragukanku

Namun ku terus berjalan
Tetap tegar sambil terseok-seok
Ku biarkan semua berlalu
Dengan keyakinan
Dengan harapan
kau tidak akan meragukannku

because i promise that
you'll never walk alone!!

u always be my side
and we walk together
just believed to me !!
i just wanna showing to u the demureness

like coffee

2009-07-21T09:32:00.009+07:00

for every moment in my life
for every memories in my life
leave behind a beautiful
but sometimes leave behind a bitter

and for a long time ago i feel a bitter
like coffee
the black coffee
without the sugar , cream, or milk

as like as my love life
black, bitter
without a taste, without a feeling
and I'm enjoy the coffee

but for a long time i drink and i feel the black coffee
I'm tired , I'm feel bored
and now i wanna try again to drink coffee with cream or milk
i just wanna feel it again

so i can feel the taste of milk
feel the taste of sugar
the taste of cream
and honestly i want to feel it with u
i wanna feel the taste from u

and i hope the coffee will be sweet

the words that u can agree or disagree!!

2009-07-21T08:22:00.003+07:00

"Life is like making investment... sometimes you need to take risk to get through it..."

"the easiest way to feel happy is to make others happy.."

"Memories can be friend or foe !!!"

"The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places"

"Enthusiasm Is INFECTIOUS.."

"Sooner or later we get bored of everything in life including all human and material objects!"

"we are all responsible for our own actions"

"Keep your head and your heart in the right direction and you don't have to worry about the feet ."

"No one can avoid love...when it comes, there is no way except falling in it.."

"Men want to be needed, and women need to be wanted."

Failure is an event,"

"You know how to give , You know how to forgive."
""A giving person is a forgiving person..:)""

"We are never all alone...some memories are always with us..."

"No one is in charge of your happiness,but you.."

"Sharing thoughts is the first step to improve understanding of our self and of each other."

"Don't ask God for a easy life, ask him to make you a strong person"

aku hanya

2009-06-29T11:06:00.004+07:00

Dalam setiap detak alunan lagu
Dalam setiap gerakan dalam tubuh ini
Aku begitu menikmatinya
Tapi tak pernah aku sadari
selama ini Aku telah berdansa dengan bayanganmu
for a long time i'm dancing with ur shadow

Tak perlu kau nilai-nilai semua
Tatap mataku dan kau akan tau apa yang aku rasakan
Selama ini aku bertahan

but now i'm so stiflingly hot
and i'm losing my emotion
And now it chills me to the bone

Ku terdiam bukan berarti aku menerima
Tapi aku tak mau menjadi gila
Ku terdiam bukan berarti bahagia
Tapi karena aku kecewa

Gelap mata ini yang tak mampu membedakan gelap terang cahaya
Atau...
Memang hati yang sedang tak ingin membuka diri?
Lelah aku menaungi setiap ratapan
Akankah usai?
Tapi untuk menolehpun kau enggan...

Hubungan ini menghantarkanku ke dunia yang semakin tak ku tahu
Di mana begitu banyak keanehan, begitu pekat keraguan
Aku tersesat pada hatiku sendiri

Mungkin ini rasa...
Rasa yang bersembunyi dibalik keraguan...
Adakah terpikirkan olehmu jikalau hati ini letih?
Letih terhadap setiap ketidak wajaran yang kerap terjadi?

Dapatkah kau mengerti?
Aku hanya merindukan suatu kewajaran
kewajaran dari hatimu untukku

our world

2009-06-19T09:47:00.003+07:00

i'm feel that i'm loosing U
i don't know u
u are different than yesterday

hate that is happen to me
is just a sensitive feeling that i feel?
or is real feeling?

u are in your world
and i'm here
waiting u to come to our world

the world that can make laugh
the world that can make smile
just for us

and i miss u
for everything in U

2009-06-12T10:22:00.003+07:00

why always me?

everybody doesn't know what happen
but everybody judging me to much!!

i'm tired with all of this situation

just for a second
but u into my heart so deep
just for a second
i felt like hurt

i'm angry
i'm hate u

but just for a second
i'm losing u
and just for a second
i regret with my decision

i think about u
i fight to not cry but i can't

i feel that i'm in love with u
and i'm addicted with u

please forgive me
if i'm wrong
please forgive me...

i still need u

i miss u

dalam diam

2009-06-08T11:08:00.004+07:00

dalam diam aku mengaguminya
dalam diam aku merindukannya

menarik mata dan hati-ku tuk semakin mendekat
mendekat tuk mengenalmu lebih dalam

tanpa sadar aku merindukannya
tanpa sadar aku menyukainya

namun mengapa kau tak jujur?
tak jujur pada keadaan?

jiwa ini bergulat
hati ini menolak
namun raga ini terlalu kuat tuk menerima

dalam Sebuah antagonistik yang masih menjelajahi kelimbungan
Dan masih bermain dengan kesetiaan
Atau mungkinkah ini adalah sebuah penghianatan?

Ini bukan sebuah kompleksitas
Ini hanyalah sebuah dilema
Dilema yang terperangkap di dalam keambisiusan tanya

dalam drama yang kau mainkan
terlihat sempurna
sehingga aku terbawa dalam lakon yang ku perankan

Aku mengerang
Aku kesakitan
Aku menutup mata

Dan seketika ku tersadar
aku lelah bermain

dalam diam aku bimbang
dalam diam aku tak kuasa
dalam diam aku masih bertanya

sebuah kata

2009-06-06T17:19:00.004+07:00

Dia
antara ada dan tiada??
apakah dia itu nyata??
atau hanya gambaran tentang seseorang yang kita punya

apakah kita mencintai dia??
atau hanya mencintai gambaran tentang seseorang??
ataukah hanya senang dengan menganguminya dari kejauhan??
karena pada hakekatnya orang hanya mencintai dirinya sendiri

tapi sebuah ketulusan membuka ruang ke egoisan
untuk berbagi
untuk bersama

sehingga tidak ada ruang sempit yang menyesakan
hanya ada padang savana yang luas yang membelah cakrawala
bisakah aku menerima dia tanpa syarat???
atau bisakah dia menerima aku tanpa syarat??

kita semua bermain dalam rasa akan tetapi tak ada yang berani merasa
inilah kegelisahan hati
namun membuka pandangan baru
untuk bisa merasakan dan berucap kejujuran

kata adalah senjata

untuk membunuh rasa

tapi rasa tak dapat membunuh kata

tapi kata hanya lah sebuah kata

yang tak punya makna tanpa rasa

aku berjuang demi waktu
dan berharap bisa menghentikan waktu
sehingga aku bisa bermain dengan waktu
serta mampu mengatur waktu
dan berharap seandainya aku bisa menikmati waktu di kala kumenunggu

coretan tangan ini mungkin tak akan bermakna
terutama bagi org2 yang tak ada dalam rasa yang di siratkan dalam coretan ini
yang menusuk hati menjalar di otak
dan menambah sugesti membuat hidup bagai tertukar antara malam dan siang
karena otak telah berputar apakah saya yang di maksud dalam tulisan ini....
adakah aku orang dalam coretan tangan ini?...

disadur dari penggalan kata yang diucap
-VA-

u are what i want

2009-06-05T15:17:00.004+07:00

Terlalu manis pesonamu
Mencuri keheningan hati
Untuk cintaku bersandar

Kita sedang berbicara tentang rasa
Sebuah rasa yang lama tertinggal
Antara aku dan kamu

Kali ini aku hanya membahasakannya dalam diam
kudekap pelan dalam nurani terdalam
Seakan denyut nadi pun ikut meredam dalam diam

Disini kududuk sendiri
menanti pagi yang tak pernah mati
Meski terasa lelah aku bertahan…
Tapi aku akan terus menahan…

Karena kamu bukan kekasih yang hilang
tapi Kamulah pasangan jiwa yang ingin kutemukan

kontradiksi

2009-06-05T15:15:00.006+07:00

Mataku memandang dan kulihat sebuah dunia yang kukenal
Dunia yang penuh warna dan arti, dunia yang begitu mempesona
Namun ku hanya tersenyum simpul dan kembali tuk tidak tersenyum, bahkan ku tak tertawa

Adakah keraguan, ataukah sebuah penyesalan
Pada akhirnya, kutanya diriku, Mengapa

perjalanan jauh ini membuatku tersiksa
membuka pintu di ujung waktu
yang mungkin mengantarku padamu

namun bibir berkata, hati berkelana, dan Otak menyimpang entah kemana

Semua begitu kontradiksi

Tidak ada keselarasan

Dan sesosok individu hilang dari kriteria tegas atas sebuah karakteristik

Hatiku dipenuhi keraguan dan kebimbangan
Awan gelap menyelimuti relung hatiku
Kabut menutup jalan pikiranku

Kucoba dan kucoba tuk menjernihkan segala asa
Kegelapan tetap ada bersama bayangku
Pada akhirnya, kutanya diriku, Mengapa

Aku hanya ingin berjalan dengan sebagaimana mestinya
Antara kau, aku dan lainnya...
Dan maaf jika kita harus berjalan pada ketidaksempurnaan...

There’s something but nothing!

2009-06-05T14:45:00.002+07:00

Semestinya kau jangan hadir
Seharusnya jangan ada perkenalan terjalin
Namun aku terlanjur mereguk aroma mewangi
Dari keceriaan dan kelincahan yang kau miliki

Kehadiran mu selalu mengganggu
Menyiksa semua kehidupan ku
Semakin meluapkan daya pikat yang menggemaskan
Caramu menatap menyiratkan sejuta makna rasa
Tersembunyi di balik langit biru memancar

Nikmatmu semakin semu ‘tuk kujangkau
Bagai terjebak dalam ruangan berbentuk kotak
Tanpa celah napas
Adakah engkau nyata?
Akankah kedekatan di antara kita mensketsa

Dia tidak cukup nyata untuk menjadi nyata.
There’s something but nothing!

sorry

2009-06-02T12:00:00.009+07:00

when i saw u
when i spend the time with u

i found the love
but i suggest this love not the love that I'm looking for
but this love so heckled to me
to pity if i pass it
coz i love it

Why u are running,
why u are hiding
if u love me
and i bet that u love me
I'm so gorgeous and i aware that u are so damn great !!

we are in a equal feeling

even i know u already have someone
someone that u say just a friend
*sorry i don't believe that*

i have a heart
i don't want being foolish
i don't want fall for u
i miss u but i don't wanna be spine of Ur relationship

love is being stupid together
right?!
sorry

want me to

2009-06-02T12:00:00.007+07:00

that body want me to hug
that smell want me to kiss
I'm tempted with all of that

in every second beside u
i can't refuse this feeling
the feeling that i want you

like a drug
when you're with me, it's a high
I'm addicted with u
with Ur smell and with Ur body
and I'm so fixated to get it
its sick but I'm enjoy it

and every beat of my mind, I only want you more

.........

2009-06-01T15:16:00.002+07:00

Everytime I take a step ahead into the future
Sometimes I'm still stuck on what's left behind
Everytime I think of what you said which had a meaning
Sometimes I keep thinking if you were right

Listen all together let us sing

Why are people running, why are people hiding
Why are people crying for this love

God please tell me what you've done in our world
It ain't strange we keep asking all the time
Lord please take your prophet and send him on
And we just keep on praying our hope ain't gone

Help me brotha, sista

about poetry

2009-05-28T08:59:00.001+07:00

We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.
Professor Keating (Robin Williams) in 'Dead Poet's Society'

(If Loving You Is Wrong) I DON'T WANT TO BE RIGHT

2009-05-27T12:50:00.002+07:00

(If Loving You Is Wrong) I DON'T WANT TO BE RIGHT
Luther Ingram
(Banks / Hampton / Jackson)

If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If being right means being without you
I'd rather live a wrong doing life
Your mama and daddy say it's a shame
It's a downright disgrace
Long as I got you by my side
I don't care what your people say

Your friends tell you there's no future
in loving a married man
If I can't see you when I want to
I'll see you when I can
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right

Am I wrong to fall so deeply in love with you
knowing I got a wife and two little children
depending on me too
And am I wrong to hunger
for the gentleness of your touch
knowing I got somebody else at home
who needs me just as much

And are you wrong to fall in love
with a married man
And am I wrong trying to hold on
to the best thing I ever had
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right

Are you wrong to give your love
to a married man
And am I wrong trying to hold on
to the best thing I ever had
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right

I don't wanna be right
if it means sleeping alone at night
I don't wanna be right
if it means coming home at night
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna never, never, never be right

never change

2009-05-25T10:43:00.009+07:00

the feels of love start from eyes.

and the feels like start from ears

and if I want to stop to like someone , just close my ears

but with U i try to close my eyes , try to forget u

but the love change to be a tears and still leave in my heart for a long time

I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall fast, because every time I fall in love... it never seems to last.

and for this
The never-ending feeling when I'm with you

You are the same people
that never change

yesterday , now or tomorrow

loving u like loving my loneliness

and in my loneliness I'm officially yours

I can close my eyes to things I don’t want to see,

I can close my lips to things I don't want to talk,

but I can’t close my heart to things I don’t want to feel...

and
You already had me at hello..

If Loving you wrong, i don't wanna be right

marriage about

2009-05-25T10:05:00.006+07:00

"Woman was created from the rib of man
Not from his head to be above him
Nor his feet to be walked upon
But from his side to be equal
Near his arm to be protected
And close to his heart to be loved"
-Dale S. Hadley-

" Don't marry the person you think you can live with; marry only the individual you think you can't live without " - James C. Dobson

"Don't walk in front of me, I maynot follow
Don't walk behind me, I maynot lead
Just walk beside me & be my love FOREVER...!"

"For hearing my thoughts, understanding my dreams and being my best friend, for filling my life with joy and loving me without end, I do." - Unknown -

"I love you, not because who you are, but what you made me when I'm beside you"

"The road to true love was never easy, I know I've hit all the bumps, but now I'm standing strong saying, I love you, 'til the end of time."

"Marriage is like a song, where the Lord's sweet melody of love comes from two hearts joined as one, husband and wife."

"Many marriages would be better if the husband and the wife clearly
understood that they are on the same side." - Zig Ziglar

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." - Sam Keen

"Love is not just looking at each other,
It's looking in the same direction" - Antoine de Saint-Exupery, Wind, Sand and Stars, French writer (1900 - 1944)

“All married couples should learn the art of battle as they should learn the art of making love” - Ann Landers

"Marriage has less beauty but more safety than a single life; it’s full of sorrows and full of joys. It lies under more burdens, but it is supported by all the strengths of love, and those burdens are delightful."
taken from movie: "Forces of Nature"

"You don't love your wife because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her with all your heart" -Unknown-

"It takes three seconds to say I love you. Three hours to explain it and a lifetime to prove it."

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."-Lao Tzu-

"It takes a minute to like someone, and hour to love someone, but to forget someone takes a life time." - Unknown

"Morning is a wonderful blessing, either sunny or stormy.
It stands for hope ... giving us another start of what we call Life" - Anonymous

"When I wake up, turn over, and see you lying next me, I can't help but smile; it will be a good day simply because I started it with you."

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

"True love is when the reality of everyday life seems like a dream, and every wonderful dream each night is fulfilled in real life."

and

"love means to commit oneself without guarantee"

shoes like

2009-05-25T09:33:00.001+07:00

Bagi Titi, cowok itu ibarat sepatu.

Setiap perempuan membutuhkan sepatu. Lebih tepat lagi, sebuah sepatu andalan yang bisa dipakai kapan saja saat dibutuhkan. Seperti sepatu yang sudah ada tiga tahun ada di bagasi mobil Titi. Warnanya hitam. Haknya hanya tiga senti. Harganya juga tidak mahal. Sepatu itu tidak berlabelkan Manolo Blahnik, sepatu yang diciptakan oleh seorang Spanyol yang sangat digila-gilai oleh Carrie Bradshaw dan jutaan wanita lain di belahan dunia ini.

Sepatu itu, Titi beli saat berlibur ke Bandung bersama teman-teman kuliah. Iseng-iseng dia mencobanya ketika berbelanja baju di sebuah factory outlet di jalan Riau. Eh! Ternyata, sepatu itu nyaman sekali. Bagi Titi yang memang penggila sepatu, harga sepatu yang dia coba itu juga tidak mahal. Tanpa pikir panjang, Titi membelinya. Dan sampai sekarang, sepatu itu menjadi sepatu yang sangat diandalkan Titi.

Dulu, saat sepatu Jimmy Choo oleh-oleh dari Tante Sarah secara tidak sengaja tersangkut besi penutup gorong jalan sampai haknya patah, sepatu hitam murah itu yang bisa ‘menyelamatkan dia agar tidak tampil ‘pincang’ di acara ulang tahun Marina. Sejak peristiwa itu lah, Titi sangat sayang pada sepatu murah berwarna hitam. Maka, ia menyimpannya di bagasi. Sebagai cadangan bila sepatu yang ia pakai bermasalah.

“You are my lucky shoes.” Gumam Titi setiap kali dia melakukan ritual membersihkan sepatu hitam itu.

Titi si penggila sepatu mungkin sadar kalau Zaki juga sangat tergila-gila pada Titi. Sudah dua tahun terakhir ini, Zaki ‘digantung’ tanpa kepastian.

Satu tahun yang lalu.
“Saya sayang banget sama kamu, Ti…” Ujar Zaki dengan tulus.
“Aku juga sayang sama kamu. Tapi…”
“Tapi?”
“Tapi, aku pengen kita tetep seperti ini. Ngga usah jadian.”
“Hm?”
“Aku ngga siap terikat.”
“…”
“Kayak gini aja. Kita bisa jalan kapan aja. Kamu bisa nelpon aku kapan aja.”
Zaki menghembuskan napas panjang. Sedikit kecewa dengan pernyataan Titi. “Tapi…”
“Percaya deh sama aku, kita mendingan kayak gini. No commitment. Aku belum siap terikat dan aku ngga bisa kalo kamu pengen lebih dari itu.” Potong Titi dengan santai.

Zaki memang tidak mempunyai pilihan lain selain menuruti apa kata Titi. Ia sudah terlanjur sayang dengan perempuan penggila sepatu itu. Titi memang menarik. Berwajah oval, kulit yang sangat terawat dan potongan rambut ala Cleopatra membuat Zaki seperti Marcus Anthonius alias Mark Antony yang sangat tergila-gila pada perempuan jelita dari Egypt.

Sementara bagi Titi, Zaki hanya laki-laki yang ia simpan di ‘bangku cadangan’ Zaki bisa dikatakan bernasib seperti sepatu hitam andalannya. Disimpan di bagasi dan hanya dipakai pada saat-saat tertentu.

“Kamu tuh jahat banget deh Ti sama Zaki.” Komentar Marina saat mereka berdua sedang duduk santai di kantin jurusan.
“Jahat?” Titi langsung meletakan botol minuman dingin yang sedang ia nikmati.
“Iya lah, cowok baek kayak dia kamu jadiin cadangan gitu.”
Titi hanya tertawa.
“Lho, kok malah ketawa sih Ti? Aku serius nih.”
“Marina…, kamu inget kan sepatu hitam yang aku beli di Bandung?”
“Iya, sepatu yang selalu ada di bagasi mobil kamu.”

Titi tersenyum.

“Hubungannya sama Zaki?”
“Sepatu itu, meski murah dan ngga berlabel Manolo Blahnik atau Kate Spade, adalah sepatu ternyaman buat aku. Nah, Zaki itu ngga jauh beda deh.”
“Ha?”
“Aku nyaman sama dia. Dia baik dan pengertian banget. Tapi ngga salah kan kalo aku suka juga sama yang lain?”

Marina mengangkat bahu.

“Perumpamaannya sih kayak aku suka sama sepatu-sepatu Jimmy Choo yang bagus-bagus itu. Ngga salah kan? Toch aku tetep nyimpen sepatu factory outlet Bandung itu.”
Marina menggelengkan kepala. “Titi…, Titi… Cowok kok disamain kayak sepatu sih?”
“Ferry lagi ngedeketin aku, Rin! Masa sih cowok keren di kampus kita ini aku lewatin aja? Sayang kan?” Mata Titi mengerling jahil.
“Aduuuh Titi! Masa sih kamu ngga tau gimana reputasi Ferry ke cewek-cewek?”
“Tapi kan dia keren, Rin. Udah lama banget aku suka sama dia tapi baru kali ini dia ngajak aku nge-date.”
“Ti…, Ferry itu suka mainin cewek! Udah deh. Stay away from him otherwise you will be his next victim!”
“Ferry tuh udah berubah, Rin. Dia sendiri yang ngaku sama aku.”
“Ah! Aku ngga percaya.” Tutur Marina dengan wajah yang sedikit judes. “Itu sih akal-akalan dia aja biar bisa jadian sama kamu.”
“Bener kok Rin. Dia beda banget sama yang orang-orang bilang.”
“Trus Zaki? Apa kabarnya tuh?”

Titi tidak menjawab pertanyaan Marina.

“Dua minggu yang lalu, aku masih liat dia nganterin kamu pulang abis kuliah.”
“…”
“Ti? Kok diem aja?”
“Iya, aku memang nelpon dia. Minta tolong jemput. Kan mobilku lagi masuk bengkel Rin. Mana hujan lagi.”
“Kenapa ngga telepon Ferry?”
“Mmmm…”
“Ferry lagi jalan sama cewek lain ya?” Marina tersenyum lebar.
“Ferry lagi latihan sepak bola. Jadi ngga bisa jemput aku.”
“Jadiii…, kalo Ferry ngga available, Zaki selalu jadi tempat pelarian nih?”

Titi menjawab pertanyaan Marina dengan senyum kecut.

Kasus Ferry sebenarnya bukan yang pertama. Dulu, Titi sangat tergila-gila dengan Reno, anak Teknik Industri. Jalan beberapa kali. Begitu menemukan hal yang membuatnya tidak sreg, Titi kembali menelepon Zaki. Belum lagi saat Titi didekati Bambang yang ternyata super posesif, Zaki adalah tempat Titi ‘kembali’.

Padahal untuk urusan tampang dan penampilan, Zaki termasuk oke alias bisa menyamai gaya dandanan Titi. Urusan akademis pun, IPK Zaki tidak pernah lebih kecil dari 2.5.
Tapi Titi seperti tidak melihat semua kebaikan Zaki. Semua orang selalu lebih dari Zaki. Tapi bila Titi dikecewakan oleh mereka, Titi selalu berpaling pada Zaki dan Zaki, memiliki tingkat kesabaran yang luar biasa, selalu menerima Titi dengan senang hati.

“Udah ah Rin, jangan ngomongin Zaki. Mendingan temenin aku yuk ke mall. Nine West lagi diskon lho… Aku pengen deh liat-liat koleksi sepatunya. Lumayan kan beli sepatu bagus trus dapet diskon?”
“Ya ampun Ti… bukannya minggu kemaren kamu baru beli sepatu di Zara?”
“Iya sih, tapi kan aku pengen liat-liat lagi. Siapa tau ada yang cocok.”
“Dasar ratu sepatu!” Marina tertawa.
Titi bangkit dari tempat duduk. “Rin, aku parkir mobil di ujung jalan Bangka. Tadi dateng kesiangan. Jadi aja, harus parkir di tempat berbatu gitu.”
“Yah gak apa-apa. Jalan agak jauh kan sekalian olah raga.”

Tempat parkir di kampus Titi dan Marina memang luas. Tapi, namanya juga Jakarta, tidak sedikit mahasiswa yang membawa mobil ke kampus. Titi yang biasanya datang lebih awal demi mendapatkan tempat parkir yang nyaman beraspal tebal, kali ini terpaksa memarkir mobil agak jauh dari kampus, di atas jalan yang berbatu.

Belum sampai mobil…

“ADUH!”
“Titi!”

Titi meringis kesakitan dengan posisi terduduk. Ia jatuh terantuk batu.

“Ti? Kamu ngga apa-apa?”
Titi menepukan kedua telapak tangan lalu berdiri. “Aku ngga apa-apa sih Rin. Tapi liat nih, sepatu yang aku pakai… haknya patah.”
Marina mengarahkan mata pada sepatu Titi. “Ya ampuuun…”
“Padahal sepatu ini baru sebulan aku beli, Rin…” Ujar Titi dengan raut muka yang sedih.
“Ya ampuuun…”
“Tapi biar deh, kan aku punya sepatu cadangan yang dari factory outlet Bandung itu.” Muka Titi sedikit cerah.

Dengan sedikit pincang, Titi berjalan menuju mobil. Ia membuka bagasi dan meraih sepatu hitam yang selalu setia menjadi andalannya bila hal-hal seperti ini terjadi.

“See? Sepatu ini…, ngga percuma aku beli. Nyaman dan selalu pas dengan model baju apapun. Jadi ngga pusing.”

Sepuluh menit kemudian, mobil Titi sudah melaju menuju sebuah mall di bilangan Senayan. Sampai di sana, Titi langsung mengajak Marina ke tempat incarannya.

“Aduh Ti, tapi aku laper berat nih. Makan bentar deh di food court. Yah?” Marina dengan muka memelas.
“Tapi kan Rin, tujuan utama kita kan ke…”
“Tujuan utama kamu kali… huhuhu… yah Ti? Please? Daripada aku jatuh pingsan pas kamu milih-milih sepatu gimana? Ribet kan?”
“Bentar aja kok, Rin…”
“Hey! I know you well… sebentar dalam kamus kamu nyari sepatu itu artinya dua jam.”
“Hehehe…, iya deh.”
“Tenang aja, toko sepatu itu kan ngga akan jalan kemana-mana kok.”

Marina dan Titi langsung menuju lantai atas dengan menggunakan escalator. Food court sore itu masih tetap ramai. Marina lalu memesan makanan sementara Titi hanya memesan minuman sambil melamun dengan sepatu-sepatu berkeliaran dalam pikirannya.

Tiba-tiba Titi melihat sosok seseorang yang sangat dikenalnya. Zaki. Ia berjalan menuju arah tempat duduk Titi dan Marina. Yang mengejutkan, ada seorang perempuan cantik melingkarkan tangannya di lengan Zaki.

“Rin! Rin!” Titi sengaja menginjak Marina yang sedang tekun menikmati ayam plus kentang goreng.
“Aduh! Apaan sih Ti?”
“Liat, siapa yang lagi jalan nyamperin kita.” Kali ini Titi berbisik karena Zaki dan perempuan cantik itu dalam dua detik sudah ada dihadapannya.
“Hallo Titi… Marina…” Zaki tersenyum lebar.
“Hallo Zaki!” Sapa Marina. Sementara Titi membalas senyum Zaki. Canggung.
“Abis shopping?”
“Belum sih, Titi nih pengen nyari sepatu. Tapi aku paksa ke sini dulu karena aku kelaparan berat.”
“Ooo… eh ya! Kenalin ini Alin… uhmmm, pacar saya.” Zaki tersenyum malu pada perempuan yang ada disampingnya.
“Alin.” Perempuan cantik itu menyalami Titi dan Marina.
“Ya udah deh Ti, Rin… kita jalan-jalan lagi ya?”

Zaki lalu menjauh dari Titi dan Marina. Titi sempat memutar kepalanya beberapa derajat memerhatikan pasangan itu.

“Hah? Zaki? Pacaran?”
“Lho? Emangnya kenapa?”
“Kok tega sih dia pacaran? Bukannya dia suka sama aku?” Ujar Titi sedih.
“Dia udah minta kamu jadi pacarnya kan, Ti?” Marina lalu mereguk air mineral yang ada di meja.

Tiba-tiba perasaan menyesal mengambang dengan cepat dalam pikiran Titi. Iya, sekarang ia baru sadar bahwa ia sangat kehilangan Zaki. Orang yang selalu mendengarkan keluh kesahnya meski sudah lewat tengah malam. Zaki, orang yang selalu available setiap kali Titi membutuhkannya. Zaki, orang yang selalu membuat perasaannya nyaman.

Sekarang, Titi kehilangan Zaki.

Tanpa sadar, Titi menekan kakinya keras-keras ke lantai. Menyadari bahwa betapa bodoh dirinya selama ini telah menyimpan Zaki di ‘bangku cadangan’. Air mata mulai menggenang. Perasaan sedih yang tiba-tiba datang.

-TAK-

Hak sepatu andalan Titi patah.

–
dimuat di majalah spice tahun 2006

http://istribawel.com/2009/05/sepatu-andalan-titi.html

love love love

2009-05-20T11:00:00.009+07:00

"Love is Anger without Rage
Love is Passion without Lust
Love is Sadness without Sorrow
Love is Seeing the Good side in Everything, without Losing Sight of the Ugly side.
Love will only be as Beautiful or Painful as you wanted it to be."

-why love and time so close?-
"Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

"Love eventually grows if you allow time to play its part."

"If distance were measured in terms of the heart we'd never be more than a minute apart."

"Love requires years of work, but in the end it is really worth the time."

"Time could never dim my love for you, because with every beat of my heart, I only want you more."

"CINTA tak mungkin mempertanyakan apalagi meragukan, mengharapkan apalagi menuntut imbalan. Satu-satunya hal yang bisa dilakukan CINTA adalah mengabdi.

CINTA tak pernah beralih sebab ketika CINTA beralih ia tak lagi CINTA tetapi ketidaksetiaan. Dan ketidaksetiaan adalah salah satu musuh terbesar CINTA."

"I don't need anyone to
take advantage of my
weaknesses or my strengths,
I need someone
who will appreciate me
for everything that I am."

"The greatest pain that comes from love,
Is loving someone you can never have"

"God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him"

"I have a pair of eyes, but can't always see you.
I have a pair of hands, but can't always protect you.
But I have a heart, that always prays for you" - Quote by L Square

"Love sees not with the eyes but with the mind, therefore is winged cupid painted blind." - William Shakespeare

"The alphabet starts with ABC; numbers starts with 123, but love starts with you and me."

"You're like a drug; when you're with me, it's a high. When you're not, it's a low. And even though I know you'll hurt me in the end, I still need you."

"Wherever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks, I will be right here ... waiting for you." - Richard Marx

"Whenever you smile for no reason & whenever you feel an unexpected flutter of joy, just know that it's because I'm thinking of you."

"I love you like the moon loves the night
like the bee hugs the flower
like the dawn wait for the sun
I love you the most."

"Don't walk in front of me, I maynot follow
Don't walk behind me, I maynot lead
Just walk beside me & be my love FOREVER...!"

"My night has become a sunny dawn because of you."

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams." - Dr Seuss

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world."
~Unknown~

"Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart."
~Unknown~

"Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak mendengar, namun sentiasa bergetar
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak buta namun, sentiasa melihat dan merasa.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak menyiksa namun, sentiasa menguji.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak memaksa namun, sentiasa berusaha.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak cantik namun, sentiasa menarik.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak datang dengan kata-kata namun, sentiasa menghampiri dengan hati.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak terucap dengan kata namun sentiasa, hadir dengan sinar mata.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak hanya berjanji, namun sentiasa coba memenangi.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia mungkin tidak suci, namun sentiasa harmoni.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak hadir kerana permintaan, namun hadir kerana ketentuan.
Jika ia sebuah cinta.....ia tidak hadir dengan kekayaan dan kebendaan, namun hadir kerana pengorbanan dan kesetiaan."

"I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow"

True love is like ghosts,
Which everybody talks about,
But only few have seen...
- anonymous -

"love is being stupid together"

"Missing you is my hobby, caring for you is my job, making you happy is my duty, and loving you is my life."

"MENCINTAI.
BUKANLAH bagaimana kamu melupakan..
melainkan bagaimana kamu MEMAAFKAN.
BUKANLAH bagaimana kamu mendengarkan.
melainkan bagaimana kamu MENGERTI.
BUKANLAH apa yang kamu lihat. melainkan apa
yang kamu RASAKAN.
BUKANLAH bagaimana kamu melepaskan.
melainkan bagaimana kamu BERTAHAN."

"If Loving you wrong, i don't wanna be right" - Luther Ingram

A man falls in love through his eyes,
A woman through her ears.
- wondrow wyatt -

"the words 'like' and 'love'; 'like' is when you know the best side of someone and like them ... 'love' is when you know the worst side that someone could ever have, and you still love that person with everything you have in your heart."

"Love is when you look into someone's eyes and see their heart."
- Jill Petty-

"When I see you smile, I can face the world," - Bad English

"love is like a mountain
hard to climb
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful"

"People say you only fall in love once, but when I hear your voice I fall in love all over again"
-anonymous-

Emotion turning back on itself, and not leading on to thought or action, is the element of madness. ~John Sterling~

“The decision to kiss for the first time is the
most crucial in any love story. It changes the
relationship of two people much more strongly
than even the final surrender; because this kiss
already has within it that surrender.”

-Emil Ludwig-

love about

2009-05-12T09:23:00.002+07:00

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from specific pleasure to passionate interpersonal attraction. The word love is both a verb and a noun.

Love is not a single feeling but an emotion built from two or more feelings. Anything vital to us creates more than one feeling, and we also have feelings about our feelings (and thoughts about our feelings). This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

look the others side

2009-05-12T08:31:00.005+07:00

Ga pernah terbayang ketika harus mencintai seseorang yang mencintai orang lain yang kita kenal cukup dekat
How that’s feel??
Hurt ,,, so tortured
I think,,,
Dan kenapa dia buta untuk tetap mencintai seseorang itu?
We never know the answer.don’t know why?
But always have a reason
It’s just about a feeling
Tapi coba bayangkan jika kita jadi orang tersebut!!
Pertama menjadi Orang yang mencintai orang lain yang mencintai orang lain yang kita kenal
Wow speechless pasti kita akan berkorban apapun tuk dia
Menjadi gila menjadi bodoh menjadi smua yg dilakukan seperti ga masuk akal
Minimal banged berkorban waktu dan memberikan perhatian lebih untuk dia
Tapi dia punya alesan kenapa dia bertindak seperti itu
Setiap orang punya alesan
salah ga dia bertahan

Apakah ku bodoh?
Menjalani cinta denganmu yang tak siap memilihku
Apakah ku bisa meyakini hatimu sepenuhnya?
Selama ini ku tak berhenti memberimu perhatian yang kau perlu
Walaupun ku tak memaksa dirimu
Ingin kulihat dia lepas darimu
Dan kau milikku
Jangan biarkan hati selalu terluka karna dia
Pilihlah jalan yang benar
Ku bahagia saat kau dekat
Dunia terasa sunyi saat kau jauh dan pergi
Walaupun ku tahu cintamu tak kau berikan sepenuhnya
Selama ini ku tak berhenti memberimu perhatian yang kau perlu
Walau ku tak memaksa dirimu

Ingin kulihat dia lepas darimu
Dan kau milikku
Jangan biarkan hati selalu terluka karna dia

Ingin kulihat dia lepas darimu
Dan kau milikku
Jangan biarkan hati selalu terluka karna dia

Ingin kulihat dia lepas darimu
Dan kau milikku
Jangan biarkan hati selalu terluka karna dia
Pilihlah dia jalan yang benar

‘cas ‘–ingin bersamamu-

Tapi apa seseorang itu pernah berpikir untuk dia?
We never know but for sure it will be sure!!
Pastilahh mikir ga mungkin ga!
Ga punya hati bangeddd klo ga mikir
Now let we become the other side
Jadi orang yang dicintai tapi lo mencintai orang yang lain
Even u feels that u comfort with that guy
How’s is ur feel?
Confused feel guilty feel uncomforted
Sama hal bodohnya.. dia mencintai org lain yg belum tentu mencitai dia , sedangkan yang sudah pasti mencintai dia ga digubris, dia ga pernah sadar!!
mungkin Bukan ga di gubris bukan ga sadar tapi lagi lagi its about feeling
walaupun pastii jujur kita pengen dicintai . apa bener2 ga sadar ya?
And every body have a reason for that!!!
Its about feels and choice
Am I wrong?
Do u agree with me?

Or nothing wrong but

“mungkin kini kita tlah berbeda
dalam melihat cinta
tak dapat tuk dijalani
mungkin cinta hanyalah gejolak
yang kan buat kita kecewa
hanya menjadi air mata”
-twenty fist night-

kenapa wanita?

2009-05-11T11:14:00.004+07:00

Kenapa selalu wanita?
Kenapa selalu wanita yang di salahkan?
Kenapa selalu wanita yang disudutkan?

Ketika seorang pria dekat dengan wanita
Semua pikiran akan langsung tertuju bahwa mereka berhubungan, pacaran, tidak mungkin klo tidak ada rasa apa2…
Ga semua kan seperti itu? Tidak bisa disamaratakan semua yang deket memiliki hubungan khusus yang lebih intim seperti berpacaran. Bisa saja sahabat, atau mungkin hanya nyaman, menyenangkan?
Selain berpacaran orang tidak percaya. Mereka mengatakan bahwa cewenya-lah yang begini cowonya-lah yang begituuu
Dan bahkan kebanyakan orang berpendapat bahwa sang cewe-lah yang menjadi penyebab timbulkan benih2 cinta yang kemudian di “salah arti”kan oleh sang pria
Kita sang wanita tidak pernah meminta sang pria untuk “mengejar” kita walopun kita pengen “dikejar” apalagi dengan orang yang kita harapkan. Begitu juga pria yang tidak pernah pengen “mengejar” walopun sebenernya ingin “mendapatkan” sang wanita
Apalagi mungkin pada saat sang pria menyatakan maksud dia dalam mendekati sang wanita, dan seketika itu memang apa yang dirasakan sang wanita tidak lebih dari hanya sekedar teman, tetapi sang pria tetap kekeuh untuk mendapakan sang wanita karna merupakan tantangan atau karna memang dia sangat menginginkan sang wanita untuk bersama dia menjalani hari-harinya

Dan sang wanita mungkin karna tidak ada yang maslah dengan semua itu selama tidak menggangu sehingga tetap menjalankan hari-hari biasa , dengan nyaman-nyaman saja selama masih bisa berteman dengan banyak orang
Atau ada wanita yang memang tidak nyaman dengan keadaan seperti itu karna menurut dia sangat mengganggu privacy.
Atau mungkin ada juga wanita yang justru menginginkan ituuu untuk memanfaatkan sang pria untuk hal-hal yang hanya menyenangkan sang wanita saja

Tiap orang berbeda pandangan , dan tiap orang punya alasan!!!!
Jangan pernah samakan orang lain dengan orang yang kita kenal klo kita ga pengen disamain sama orang laian yang dia kenal ( okeh sometimes I do that, n I know that wrong )
Dan kenapa disini banyak sekali orang berpandangan semua ini salah dari wanita
Wanita yang memberikan harapan pada sang pria, sang wanita yang memanfaatkan keadaan, sang wanita yang mainin perasaan sang pria?
Kenapa wanita?? Kenapa wanita yang disudutkan? Kenapa wanita yang dipersalahkan?
Apakah memang seperti itu wanita ? apakah memang seperti itu pandangan orang?
Kenapa ga pernah melihat dari sisi pria?
Menjawab pandangan orang bahwa wanita yang suka memberikan harapan yang menyebabkan pria “semakin mengejar” karna dia berfikir bahwa sang wanita memberikan sinyal2 harapa? Okeh mungkin memang ada yang seperti itu memberikan harapan kalau untuk hal ini saya setuju bahwa wanita yang salah
Tetapi jika sang wanita merasa tidak memberikan harapan dia hanya bersikap biasa sama dengan yang dia lakukan kepada banyak orang (tingkah yang sama) yang diberikan para pria. Memang sifatnya seperti itu ? apa ini juga menjadi salah sang wanita? Bagaimana dengan pria yang suka memberikan harapan sinyal-sinyal tak pasti dengan keragu2an kepada wanita?? kenapa pria tidak pernah disalahkan?

Atas pandangan wanita yang memanfaatkan keadaan ? memang ada yang seperti ini jujur wanita akan merasa fine-fine saja dengan seperti ini karna terkadang memang tidak ada ruginya buat sang wanita, tapi juga memang ada yang memang benar memanfaatkan keadaan! Saya tidak bisa menjabarkan lebih panjang karna batasan memanfaatkan sangat luas lagi – lagi tiap orang punya pndangannya sendiri- sendiri . tapi lagi – lagi bagaimana dengan pria yang terkadang taua kenyakan “memanfaatkan” fisik sang wanita? Walaupun konteksnya mungkin ini terjadi ketika sudah berhubungan dengan dalih yang biasa dikatakan pria “suka sama suka” walaupun memang tidak dipungkiri kalau wanita juga suka dengan hal seperti itu asal tidak berlebihan dan kemudian dengan bangganya di “publish” ke orang2 terdekat sang pria.. kenapa pria tidak disalahkan untuk hal itu?

Dan yang terakhir pandangan orang tentang memainkan perasaan sang pria? Harus diakui memang ada yang seperti itu tapi lagi-lagi tidak semua.
Memainkan perasaan ? apakah tidak terpikir kalau wanita juga “termainkan”perasaannya saat harus menungggu , saat sang pria mendekati dan tidak tau akan berakhir dimana? Dan tidakkah terpikir selama sang pria mendekati sang wanita, entah sang wanita dalam keadaan di titik “nol” dalam hal tidak ada perasaan apapun dengan sang pria yang mendekati sampai akhirnya menjadai sangat intens sang wanita tidak “termainkan” perasaannya? Wanita punya perasaan!! Wanita akan cepat luluh pada suatu hal yang indah dan ketika suatu yang indah itu menjadi tinggi kemudian hanya digantung atau bahkan ditinggal begitu saja apa tidak memainkan perasaannya? Atau bahkan saat sang wanita dalam keadaan di titik dimana dia mengingkan, mencintai orang lain bukan pria yang berada disampingnya “ dalam artian yang mendekati sang wanita” apa tidak pernah terpikir kalau wanita itu “memainkan” perasaannya. Dia mencintai orang lain tapi dia nyaman dengan pria tersebut entah untuk bercerita atau hanya sekedar pertemanan. Dan dia harus menjaga setiap kata yang dia ucapkan untuk menjaga perasaan sang pria. Pakaha itu namnay kalau dia tidak memainkan perasaanya sendiri? Dan Apakah salah?? Bagaimana dengan pria yang dari awal tau keadaan sebenarnya tentang perasaan sang wanita entah tau bahwa sang wanita mencintai orang lain atau bahkan mencintai sang pria dan sang pria tidak menggubris perasaan sang wanita? Kenapa pria tidak disalahkan?
Adilkah?
Semua tentanng perasaan yang memiliki alasannya sendiri untuk mempertahankan perasaan, berjuang untuk mendapatkan hal yang ingin merka dapatkan, mebiarkan perasaan berjalan apa adanya atau bahkan tidak mempedulikannya,,
Semua punya alasan

A miracle

2009-05-07T14:54:00.004+07:00

That’s man
Sick ,, limp ,, nerveless
Bedridden

As I know
He is a smart boy
He is nice
He is different
He can look with the other side
He can be arbiter in his family

And know he is in the hospital
And need a miracle

And GOD
I know U have anything
I pray for him
I pray for his recovery

I don’t want to see his family hurt
I can’t see their family sad
I’m begging U GOD
Give him a miracle
Give my best friend brother a miracle
That U have

Amin

i think i thoughts

2009-05-07T11:08:00.003+07:00

Its fun to be with u, it’s true
But in that time I’m feel scared
Scared if that situation compulse me to accept it
Not because my own desire to accept it
I don’t know if I measures too much
I don’t know if I think so far?

I love when U talk to me
Coz every single that u say
So interesting for me
Like I appreciate the time that I spend with you
Inspire me with the smile I put on U

in other site
In front of u
I always want to looks different
Don’t know the matter what of the condition

But
Am I wrong?
When I can’t get your feeling?
Am I wrong?
When I see U with my own appraisal

Am I wrong?
When I sometimes imagine someone else?
Yes, I’m wrong!!
And I know that
That I suggest u by myself

I’m sorry if I’m not a perfect woman
And its gonna be same ‘til the end

The truth hurt
I come back with my own way
My heart still the same
even sometimes not
but
I can’t avoid this feel
I try but I can’t!!!!
I think

officially yours

2009-05-07T09:23:00.002+07:00

[Intro]
Oh yeah yes
La da day, la da day
La da da da da oh

[Verse 1]
Thinkin' how the story goes
You're helpless and I'm wishin'
Put the film inside my mind
But there's a big scene that I'm missin'
As I re-read my lines
I think I said this, I should've said that
Did you edit me out of your mind
'Cos in a flash you had disappeared, gone (gone)
Before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Maybe I should risk it all and state

[Chorus]
That I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I'm officially yours
La da day, la da day
La da da da da oh

[Verse 2]
Travellin' down this road again
Gotta make a few decisions
Don't want you to feel this hurt again
That's why I'm hopin' that you'll listen
If you let me press rewind
I'll rehearse every word I should have said
'Cos girl I'm ready to make things right
Here on this stage so we can move on (on)
And before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Missin' pieces I'll resolve so stay

[Chorus]
I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Bridge]
Things I should have said
Like I appreciate the time that I spend with you
Inspire me with the smile I put on your pretty face
My world comes alive, now I know (now I know it babe)
This time I'm not letting go
'Cos I'm officially yours (oh oh)

[Chorus]
Officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Outro]
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (oh yeah)
Officially yours, your man (La da day, la da day, la da day)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (La da da da da oh)
Officially yours, I am

Girl I'm unconditionally yours (listen what I'm tryna say)
Officially yours, your man (oh oh)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours
Officially yours, I am

what the F****N he think about it??

2009-05-06T08:10:00.003+07:00

he comes again
when he disappear
when i allowed he to let go
When i try to get up
when i can get up slowly

but he come again
and say that he still love me
he still remind me
he still miss me
every second that we past it
always make him remind me

what the hell u think about it???
u want play a game with me again??
I'm so enough with u
even i know sometimes I'm think about us
but i think u re so disgusting to me

how could u do this for me!!
u absolutely make me more hate U !!!

grow old with u!! song of the month

2009-05-04T14:15:00.003+07:00

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when you're arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furbace breaks
Oh, it could be so nice growing old with you

I'll miss you
kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
I'll even let you hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh, I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

by adam sandler

gilaaa yahh ni laguu
mantabhh abessss
i love every single that word
i love it!!!

menjijikan

2009-05-01T10:40:00.004+07:00

ihhhh yuuuuuwwwww

lagi ga da kerjaan gw iseng baca2 blog gw
dari awal ampe hari ini
dah hasilnya

menjijikan
*untuk cerita2 gw*

klo untuk puisi
gw justru shock
koq gw bisa yah bikin ini?
hahhahahaha:p
n i love it
i love every poetry with a word that i created

cuma yg lain???
owhhhh the hell yaaaa

what the F***N i'm thinking about that???

song of the month

2009-05-01T08:06:00.001+07:00

Back in the day when I was younger.
I fell in love about every summer.
And I would be calling up the radio.
To dedicate my favorite song to her.
And I sung along with everything.
The words in the song, they spoke to me.
Now I need to know, where did the music go.
Cause my heart is crying out.

I need a love song about now.
Don't need no ring tone songs now.
Please tell the DJ, slow it down.
I wanna think about my baby now.
I want a old school type of slow jam.
You know the kinda where they used to romance.
When Luther used to sing like 'baby'
and Michael made the world go crazy.
I need a 12-play, two step, kelly kinda record (Oh)
I need a love song right now.

(Ooh. C'mon, c'mon, c'mon)

Back in the day when I got older.
The music in me had taken over.
So I wrote the songs that made the lovers dance.
Like "I'll Make Love" and "Breathe Again"
Now I want to know, where love has been.
Its just not the same, as it was back then.
And the world needs to fall in love again.
Cause my heart is crying out.

I need a love song about now.
Don't need no ring tone songs now.
Please tell the DJ, slow it down.
I wanna think about my baby now.
I want a old school type of slow jam.
You know the kinda where they used to romance.
When Luther used to sing like 'baby'
and Michael made the world go crazy.
I need a 12-Play, two step, Kelly kinda record (Oh)
I need a love song right now.

Remember when we used to slow dance.
And everybody used to electric-slide.
We'd be partying the whole night.
And we took it home,oh baby.
Rock the boat to the radio, don't ya' know, I miss it all right now.
Cause my heart is crying out.

(x2)
I need a love song about now.
Don't need no ring tone songs now.
Please tell the DJ, slow it down.
I wanna think about my baby now.
I want a old school type of slow jam.
You know the kinda where they used to romance.
When Luther used to sing like 'baby'
and Michael made the world go crazy.
I need a 12-Play, two step, Kelly kinda record (Oh)
I need a love song right now.

I need a love song.
Please tell the DJ.
I need a love song.
Please tell the DJ.

I need a love song

i'm gonna fly!!!

2009-04-30T14:57:00.006+07:00

for the first i'm gonna fly alone!!!
the destination i never know,,
alone!!!

huaaaaa i can't believed it
and i can't wait that day!!

wuhuuuuuuuu:D

i'm so excited
n i'm don't believe that

its seems like one step i do to not depend for somebody
and make my own way!!

its like freedom
what i'm doing is what i want !!

like new baby child come into the world

and its gonna big step for another plan!!!

inikah doa seorang ibu?

2009-04-27T11:41:00.005+07:00

ketika gw berada dalam persimpangan dalam pilihan
ketika gw harus memutuskan untuk mengikuti apa yang dia katakan
ketika gw mencoba untuk menjalani hidup untuk mereka

awalnya gw menolak dengan keadaan ini semua
awalnya gw menolak setiap waktu yang ada

gw merasa useless
gw merasa ga berkembang
gw ga maju
hanya jalan ditempat

tapi semakin disini gw ga se-boring itu
*even somtimes i feel bored*
tapi terkadang gw juga menikmati
terkadang menyenangkan to be part of this

sempat gw memutuskan untuk mencari jalan gw sendiri
yang emang gw inginkan
dan samapi saat ini saya berhasil pada titik terakhir
yaitu menunggu pengumuman untuk bisa kuliah lagi
walaupun gw tau orang tua gw lebih tepatnya mamah ga pernah setuju dengan keputusan gw ini

tapi pada saat bersamaan

lagi lagi pilihan itu datang

apakah gw harus mengikuti keinginan gw dengan jalan gw sendiri
ataukah gw tetap bertahan disini dengan fasilitas dan karir yang lebih baik dari skr,, promosi jabatan
i would be part of this as real!!!

dan gw semakin menyadari satu hal
gw selalu diberikan kemudahan
diberikan apa yang ingin gw capai tapi dengan cara yang "berbeda" dengan kebanyakan orang tapi berhasil ada disitu

gw tau ini semua doa ibu
atas restu sang Maha Kuasa

tapi bu berikan aku kesempatan
dan tetap berikan aku doa

untuk aku bisa membuktikan
untuk aku bisa merasakan keinginanku

tapi ibu
aku terlalu sayang padamu
aku terlalu percaya padamu
percaya akan doa dan feeling seorang ibu
percaya itu yang engkau doakan untuk masa depan ku yang baik

berikan aku jawaban bu,,

song of the month

2009-04-23T14:09:00.005+07:00

Pernahkah kau bicara tapi tak didengar
Tak dianggap sama sekali
Pernahkah kau tak salah tapi disalahkan
Tak diberi kesempatan

Reff:
Kuhidup dengan siapa ku tak tahu kau siapa
Kau kekasih ku tapi orang lain bagiku
Kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku aku patung bagimu
Cinta bukan kebutuhanmu

Back to Reff

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskanlah teruskanlah
Kau kau begitu
Teruskanlah

the choice

2009-04-22T12:34:00.004+07:00

i hate to see that eyes
the eyes that full of meaning
and i don't know what d meaning !!!!
somehow i can't divine

i think ,,,,

Whenever you smile for no reason
and whenever you feel an unexpected flutter of joy,
just know that it's because I'm snared with that smile
save the love that never be real
just a words that i can give

enough to becoming foolish
for waiting u, where not ready to choose me
i don't wanna be so naif again
i don't wanna to fly high with my imagine
don't let me inferring ur heart
i just wanna the truth

and u know?
Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice,
falling in love with you was beyond my control

and
I love you, not because who you are, but what you made me when I'm beside you

so
let me know or leave me alone
I stands for hope ... giving me another start of what we call life

hopefully

2009-04-20T11:00:00.006+07:00

i would be lying
if i said u stepped out of my dreams!!!

the truth is u still in my dream
my dream that will be beautiful

I feel something
the feel its real
the feel that u show

dreams set aside expectation
with the beat not just a flat

please let me get it
to be owned
to be priceless
for me

if that shine come to me
if that smile for me
if that be real

i will give u sparkling shine
and the best smile i ever had
just for U

kemunafikan dan kenaifan

2009-04-16T14:51:00.003+07:00

Aku tau kamu tau
Aku percaya kamu mau
Ada sesuatu dalam cinta ini
Namun tak terungkap
Hanya bisa membuka hati yang tertutup
Namun begitu saja kau nyatakan bahwa ini semua hanya mimpi

Tatapan itu
Senyuman itu
Pelukan itu
Bahkan kata2 itu

Aku yakin !!
Aku yakin kamu merasakan hal yang sama sepertiku
Hanya saja Kau terlalu munafik
Untuk Terima pengakuanmu
Terlalu naïf
Untuk terima kenyataan

Inikah pria ??
Yang terlalu munafik dan gengsi untuk mengakui
Inikah wanita ??
yang terlalu naïf tuk mengerti ?

Jangan jadikan aku patung bernyawa di hadapanmu
Karna aku terlalu nyata tuk kau sembunyikan

aku dan cintaku

2009-03-23T13:45:00.005+07:00

Dia dan cintanya….
Aku dan cintaku…
Aku mencintainya dan aku lelah..
Sedikit nakal aku bermain dalam kejenuhanku
Mencoba meramba pelan mencari sesuatu yang baru..
Sesuatu yang membuatku menenggelamkan bosanku…
Jika seperti ini, siapa yang bersalah..???
Aku dan kelelahanku, atau dia yang membuatku lelah…???
Aku dan kejenuhanku ataukah dia yang membuatku jenuh…???
Aku sakit namun tak mampu berpaling…
Aku lelah namun tak sanggup tuk pergi…
Aku terluka namun aku mencinta..
Mencinta pada dia…
Dia yang membuatku lelah…

thoughts of trash

swords

NKOTB & BSB - 2010 American Music Awards *Live* Performances

soundtrack of perjalanan mendapatkan master *India Arie-I Choose*

perjalanan mendapatkan master

Endah N Rhesa - Remember Me

Sandhy Sondoro - You And I

Я люблю тебя ТИМА!

TIMATI - Я буду ждать

Градусы - Кто ты

Sandhy Sondoro - MTV Studio - 02 End of The Rainbow

quote

BIG MOUTH

Missing u

untitled,,

quote of the month

sorry not enough

quote of the month

main hati

if only

21.02.2010

qoute of the month

1 nama pria lain dlam hidupku

quote of the month,,,

im choosing not u

pilihanku

affair

to be perfect

perfect

i know u want me,,, pitt bull

so attempted -continue 2-

quote end of the 2009

so attempted,,

song of the month

confirm

biarkan cinta

sebuah catatan

mother love,, women care

decide to

blame myself that u re not into me

bayangmu

Я улыбаюсь

Тест письмо

quote of the month

the journey

word

quote of the month

song of the month okt 09

TIME LIMIT

Its just a feelin

sebuah cerita sebuah kisah

quote of the month

song of the month september 2009

agree and disagree for this month

tears

the way i am

i guest

hold me tight

when u love someone

where i go to landing?

waiting

like coffee

the words that u can agree or disagree!!

aku hanya

our world

dalam diam

sebuah kata

u are what i want

kontradiksi

There’s something but nothing!

sorry

want me to

.........

about poetry

(If Loving You Is Wrong) I DON'T WANT TO BE RIGHT

never change

marriage about

shoes like

love love love

love about

NKOTB & BSB - 2010 American Music Awards Live Performances

soundtrack of perjalanan mendapatkan master India Arie-I Choose