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Kamis, 31 Desember 2009

quote end of the 2009

"ignorance is a big mistake."

"Technology provides solutions to nearly all problems of man"

"do the planets have a direct influence on our day to day activities and our lives"

"Often people blame their luck... But they forget it's not a matter of chance, rather it's a matter of choice...."

"It's not a good idea to start dating a friend."
""Things may eventually go haywire!""

"Love enters the heart without introductions"

"Often its the simple things that make us happiest."

"sometimes the biggest lie is saying you don't care."
""even when its killing you inside.""

"Getting angry is very easy...but staying calm is an art/skill mastered by very few."

"Being honest and true sometimes can take the person you love away from you..."

"Lets make a promise to take them along & never let them feel"
""bad about themselves .......""

"One should always laugh when they can...Apologize when they should...and let go of what they can't change..."

"what you cannot have...you cannot resist"

"If u cannot have what u love, start loving what u have!!!!"

"love has it's own time, season and own reason, you cant ask it to stay, you can only embrace it, "
""as it comes & be glad that for a moment in your life it was yours.""

"Sympathy has dual effects or two sides for one coin , it can be seen both positively and negatively by different people"

"Good times.become good memories.Bad times,become good lessons...."

"Insults should be written in the sand, and praises carved in stone."

"old habits die hard"

Love is like a war - easy to start, hard to end

Love is not enough to have a strong, lasting relationship. the secret with it is to TRUST the one you love and accept his/her weaknesses or mistakes. It's not how many times you have forgiven. But how you have shown understanding and honesty.

Even if it&;s the end of your relationship, doesnt mean that its the end of the world. Be strong, to make a new beggining. Rather to sit and cry about the past.

Sometimes, you don't realize how much you care for someone until he/she stops caring for you

To love someone who can never love you back is like striving to get a perfect score in a non-recorded exam

if someone wants to be a part of your life they'll make an effort to be in it. so don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay..

it is not wrong to love your friend unless you're asking too much of her time and you're acting as if you're committed with each other.

one day, you have to wake up and realize some things won't last forever.. so when it's done! it's done., move on., ^

Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for her/him, even if it means swallowing the sad reality that, the best just isn't you."

"People Change constantly , it's just not always how we want them to change."

"Stop looking for happiness! Its right there...inside you!"

"If love is not taught in the home.. it's difficult to learn it anywhere else..."

"Expectations are hard to meet....!!!"

"Insults should be written in the sand, and praises carved in stone."

"old habits die hard"

When you've found a reason to walk away, never look back... Just keep walking. It's better to get lost moving on than to get stuck and stranded broken

Falling in love is not finding the perfect person. It's learning to love an imperfect person perfectly

If the heart is willing to love, it will find a thousand ways... otherwise, it will find a thousand alibis..

"Love not because of who the person is, but because of who you are when you're with her/him.

Secretly loving someone is the best thing that could hurt the most

"if we could get all we ever wished for............ da world wont be this fun"

"everyone needs motivation...even a motivator...."
""im just saying...;)""
"The best thing about year end is that you can restart all over again: new rules, new goals...new you."
"if we could get all we ever wished for............ da world wont be this fun"

"The best thing about year end is that you can restart all over again: new rules, new goals...new you."

"new year is not the only begining of sum thing new............ it's when ever some one start his life in a new way"

Senin, 28 Desember 2009

so attempted,,

Semua orang bilang dia manis,,
Semua orang bilang dia cantik,,
Semua orang,, membicarakan tentang wanita itu

Aku tidak begitu menanggapinya dengan serius
Karna bagiku wanita yang cantik adalah wanita yg kumiliki sekarang ini
Ya aku sudah memiliki seseorang,,

Sampai akhirnya aku bertemu dengan wanita itu
Wanita yang sudah banyak dibicarakan orang
Ah,, wanita itu tidak manis seperti yang dibicarakan
Wanita itu tidak cantik seperti yang dibayangkan,,,
Tapi wanita itu begitu menarik

Bahkan bisa menarik pandanganku yang sempat buta
Matanya begitu tajam hingga merasuk kedalam relung hatiku
Dia berbeda,, dan aku merasakan tantangan yang begitu dalam

Dia tidak cantik dia tidak manis,,
Tapi dia lebih dari itu,, dia sangat menarik,,
Ahh wanita begitu merasuki alam mimpiku,
Wanita itu "menganggu” lamunanku,,

Baiknya ku pergi,, tinggalkan dirimu,, sejauh mungkin,,
Untuk melupakan ,, untuk mengindari
dirimu yang begitu menggoda,,
dirimu yang meluluhkan jiwaku,,

namun tak bisa bagiku menjauh darimu
tak bisa ku beranjak dari pandanganmu
tak mudah bagiku beranjak dari hadapanmu,,

aku ingin terus berbicara denganmu
aku ingin terus bersamamu,,
aku sungguh menikmatinya
tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
teralu indah perasaan ini

Inginku bukan jadi temanmu
namun aku mohon jangan menggodaku wahai wanita,,
karena aku terlalu lemah untuk kau goda,,
karena kau penguasa hatiku saat ini,,

Tapi aku sadar aku telah memliki seseorang yang sudah mengisi hariku
Entahlah apa ini keputusan yang terbaik atas “kepemilikan” diriku akan orang lain,,
Oohhh Wanita itu masih saja menggodaku ,,
Maafkan aku sayang ,, aku tergoda olehnya,,


Minggu, 27 Desember 2009

song of the month


Pejamkan kedua matamu
Sambutlah hangat dalam pelukku
Denganmu aku ingin
memulai smua hasrat yg getarkan jiwa

Akupun menginginkamu
Berbagi smua rasa yang meraja
Tak perlu terucap kata
Biarkan mengalir apa adanya

Biarlah cinta membawa kita kesana
Dalam buai ini hanya kita berdua
Untuk selamanya atau hanya sesaat
Yang kutahu kini kita jatuh cinta

Katakan smua maumu
Malam ini smua tentangmu
Bawalah ku jauh
Ke alam khayalmu yg terindah
yang pernah kau bayangkan

back to reff

Ku tahu kau pun merasakan
Kita terbawa suasana
Terungkaplah smua rasa
bila kita memang sedang jatuh cinta

Jumat, 25 Desember 2009

confirm

in My eyes you're so perfect
Until there is no gap at all
But it was only a reflection
When I closed my eyes,,
I was blind,,

And when I opened my eyes,,
You're not as perfect as I imagined,,
I was wrong yes I'm wrong

Want to angry, like it was shouted
But couldn't
I'm just still looking at the fact

Too many lies have
Too much hypocrisy
This heart is too sore

I'm not strong, as seen
I was too weak,,,
I don't know just can't understand
as I know I just misjudged
Leave me here alone
And I try to understand his situation
It's just not supposed to be like this,,,

Kamis, 24 Desember 2009

biarkan cinta


Tak bisa ku menghindar dari pikiran yang selalu datang
Malam ini Smua tentang kamu
Kau buat ku lupa akan batasan waktu
Lupa akan perbedaan

Setiap kali kau menatapku itu memberi arti untukku
Berdebar saat kumemandangmu ,tandanya aku menginginkamu
Dan semudah itu hatiku luluh karena senyumanmu
Ku terlena dalam pelukanmu yang terlanjur terjadi

Kubiarkan cinta ini hanyut dalam asmara yg tak pasti
Salahkah bila ku disini tak peduli keadaannya

Tak perlu aku bicara
Aku tau kaupun merasakan
Kita terbawa suasana
Namun akupun menginginkanmu

Menghabiskan waktu bersama dan memesan “Hot chocolate” untuk berdua
Berbicara tertawa sepanjang malam
Biarkanlah cinta yang membawa kita kesana
Untuk sesaat atau untuk selamanya

Rabu, 16 Desember 2009

sebuah catatan

Sebuah catatan

Dan ketika kusadari sudah
tak selalu indah cinta yg ada
tidak selamanya berakhir sesuai harapan
tersenyum simpul dalam raut muka
namun menangis pada hati kecil

pahit seperti sebuah secangkir kopi hitam yang ku minum
namun hanya dapat merengguk aroma wangi kopi yang semerbak
tanpa kudapat merasakan nikmatnya rasa
hampa seperti berada dalam sebuah ruang kamar yang nyaman
yang hanya dapat kulihat indahnya hiasan yang terpampang
namun tak dapat kuhirup oksigen didalamnya



mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumiliki?
aku tau ,, itu bukan untuk aku ,,
tak perlu kau ulangi lagi
kopi itu,,, ruang itu milik dia

akan Kucoba melupakanmu karna ku tau kau bukan milikku ,
akan ku relakan kulepaskan hati ini dan tanpa harus ku berdusta,,
Sebab rasaku tlah mati untuk memulai kembali padamu
Bahwa cinta ini tak lagi sama ketika kamu memilih dia

Aku hanya memaksa masuk ruang kosong hampa itu dan memimun kopi yang tersedia
tanpa kusadari ada ruang lain yang memang terbuka untuk ku datangi
yang memang disediakan untuk aku
bahkan dengan rasa lain pada kopi
dan dengan campuran warna yang ada pada dinding ruang kamar itu
namun aku belum mendatanginya
belum dan bukan tidak akan ,,,

Dan ku harap ku dimengerti mengapa ,,

Jumat, 11 Desember 2009

mother love,, women care

Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom?

"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said,"And you never will, but that's OK".......

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say......

The little boy grew up and became a man,still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?"



GOD answered......
"When I made woman,
I decided she had to be special.I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet,made her arms gentle enough to give comfort...
I gave her the inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection
that many times will come even from her own children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going and take care of her family and friends,
even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue without complaining....
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly....

She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and
to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears....

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart....
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.... unfalteringly ....

For all of this hard work,I also gave her a tear to shed. It is hers to use whenever needed and !
it is her only weakness....When you see her cry, tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.

Kamis, 10 Desember 2009

decide to


Decide to
Now I feel that I can't breathe
I feel that I can't be my self
I can’t be strong when I'm alone
Don't you dare treat me.
like you don't know me
maybe it better for me to leave u
leave u so far away
I'd try to get you out of my mind
& many times I try to step on the ground
when now you're out of my world, don't know where to find you
but shape of you, taste of you, smell of you
Spinning in my head..
I’m Goin crazy just because of you!!
You are the one that means a lot for my life
But I don’t know do I means a lot for u too
You control me, you control me..
I feel that u control me
Take me out of here!!
I wanna be free,,
I just can’t stand without a hope
Coz’ I’ll stand for hope that I call new life,,
With or without you,,

Sabtu, 05 Desember 2009

blame myself that u re not into me

I’m already thinking about you
already hoping for you
So long, I've blame my self dreamin' 'bout you..

but I never regret it
I just can’t standing strong when u already love her
The woman that I know very well

U are always there when she was there,,
IF u know what I’m feeling
IF u understand what I’m feel



I’m try to forget u because I know that you’re not into me
the heart its BROKEN
its hurt to know the truth when I’m not ready

Even I never know the truth..
Even I never know if the feeling can change when we meet
But it can’t be the same feeling

Because she is my best friend
u are my dreaming

but I already both of them

and now I’m Stop to hoping again,,,

I decide to end of this story because my feel was die to accept it

Senin, 30 November 2009

bayangmu


Disini aku berdiri mencoba tuk mengerti
Mengapa bayangmu selalu ada dalam pikiranku
Mengapa semua tampak jelas ketika jarak ini semakin dekat

Kau buat aku mencari membuat aku bertanya akan rasa ini
Akankah smua sama ketika pada saat kita bertemu

Seandainya kau tau betapa aku sangat inginkan bertemu denganmu
Dan ungkapkan apa yg ada di dalam isi hatiku
Namun akankah bisa kunyatakan rasa ini pada saat bertemu dengan mu
Tak ada logika memang
Ini memang gila, tapi inilah cinta

Dan tanpa ku sadari aku masih disini menunggumu
Entah sampai kapan kuharus menunggumu
Menunggu hingga aku tak pernah bisa berhenti memikirkanmu
Dan tidak bisa tepiskan bayangmu
Berharap semua akan terbalas pada saatnya nanti
Berharap cinta ini kan bersatu

Tapi Sayangnya kau belum juga ada dihadapanku,,,
Hanya bayangmu yang tampak jelas dalam pikirannku




Kau pikir aku disini untuk siapa?
Sejauh ini ku datang untuk siapa?
Sangat ingin kukatakan
Ini untukmu

Senin, 23 November 2009

Я улыбаюсь

Ты нашел меня когда солнца не могла на меня светить
Ты даёшь хорошое ощушение
Ты принесёшь свет когда у меня плохие запоминания
Ты светёшь мои дни в одиночестве
Как мне нравится время которая я провожу с тобой
но иногда ты Становишся несмелом
я не знаю почему
и я себя спрашываю
Говно такое
Я это чувствую ещё
Как ребёнок
забавный, отвратительный , глупый
это меня веселеет ежедневны
больщее яркий
даже на минуточку
Я думаю что сайду сума
Ты внущаешь меня с улыбкой на тебя
И сейчас я улыбаюсь

Тест письмо

Здравствуй , до свидания
как дела аю? Спасибо,Хорошо или нормальна или плохо...
всегда повтрирят только вот слова
вчера,cейчас или завтра
я бурию
многа слова но я не понимаю
потому что я плохо запоминаю
если человек говорите но-русски
я не понимаю
я сайду сума
я хочу иди домой но я не могу
скажитие пожалуйста, что я делаю сейчас ???!!

Kamis, 05 November 2009

quote of the month

"Don't let frustration rule and ruin your life..."
""Self pity, more than anything, interferes with positive actions and moving forward. ""

only if we meet strangers, we can make friends."

"Life is all about managing different kinds of people and circumstances...."

Anyone dressing up for Halloween? I am going as an angel, what about you?"

"One of the most wonderful things in life is knowing someone you love is loving you back."

"Accept the people with their strong and weak points, no body is perfect, humans R blend of different diverse characters"

never rush in making commitment in a relationship..."
""believe it or not...? find out urself if it's real or just a crush...before making a big step...CRUSH only lasts for few months...!!!! i think so...""

"If every story has a happy ending we might not learn."
""cos if the story ends happily we might not turn back and think which prevents us from learning.""

"Jealousy is the only vice that gives no pleasure. "

"Confession is the beginning of forgiveness."

"Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else"

"lets forget the past and focus on future

don t wait for the judgment day cause it happen everyday till ur death

""Anger and rudeness are a weak persons' false show of strength but politeness and cool mind reflects dignity"
""and strength of a strong person"""

"Temptation... Many of us are weak to it. Only some of us are able to resist it with or without help from others"

"Every new day is another chance to change your life."

"Human relationships give life to our life...."
""I'm talking about the "healthy" ones.""

"Fair and credible media is badly needed to ensure a true globalization."
""Killings, injuries, terror, fear, injustice and unresolved issues are seen throughout the world as a result of lies and fabrications of the irresponsible media.""

"There are those you want... but can never have"
""and those that you can have.. you don't exactly want!""

"The completeness we sense in life comes not always from the external but from what we feel and sense within...."

"The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a man's determination."

ate controls who walks into ur life but u decide who u let walkout, who u let stay and who u refuse to let go."

"Your body language speaks your mind........"

"Thanksgiving day...Grace isn't a little prayer you chant before receiving a meal. It's a way to live"
""And to all my Muslim friends Happy Eid to you and all your family … wish you many blessings returns … ... Happy Eidu ! May Allah bless you richly""

"do the planets have a direct influence on our day to day activities and our lives"

"Often people blame their luck... But they forget it's not a matter of chance, rather it's a matter of choice...."

"It's not a good idea to start dating a friend."
""Things may eventually go haywire!""

the journey


It's not only all the journeys i've had,
not about dinners or movies i watched,
not even hugs & kisses i made..

It's all about destiny i sail,
a happiness i rides,
and the experience i walks..

As long as i breath,
Memories are remains,
hopes will remains
happiness shall remains
only hates are beaten..

even the memories play very confusing role...
and it make me cry when i remember the time i laughed together
but I believed the best way to pay for a lovely moment is to enjoy it
and you will wait for me to enjoy that time again together
and it will be more fun than ever

it just a way that I choose
for be real
to be responsible with my decision
and back with my promise

just wait
and pray for me,,

u always have a pieces of my heart
I always love u



dedicated for my family
for my best friends as my brother n my sista

Rabu, 04 November 2009

word

if u feel the same with me,,
,,,zing ,,,
U’r not continue that word
Just say its wrong n u can’t continue that word because u didn’t find the right word
And if u know the word,, u promise that u will tell me,,,
that word ,,

that word that can make me stuck in this heart
even I go so far but u still have a pieces
because that word make me wonder
there is always a reason for every unanswered question
don’t know is there any word ongoing ?
or he just leaving off the sentence
shall I go ?
if am I wrong if I stay here and don’t care about the condition ?
cos’ The best way to say goodbye is Never turn back
But I back to say with word
Even it's not better than saying it in words only
But It make me enough to finish it
to waiting u so far,,
is there’s possible to u to understand? To realized?
(adakah engkau rasakan mengapa tak kau nyatakan? sampai kapan ku bertahan menantikan kepastian ?tanpa sepatah kata ku ucapkan padamu,, sampai kapan by MnD)

Kamis, 29 Oktober 2009

quote of the month

""The best way to pay for a lovely moment is to enjoy it.""

"“It is never too late to be what you might have been.”"

"The real battles we fight are on the inside..!"

"Living is the art of getting used to what we didn't expect!!!"

"Never put out the WELCOME mat for an EVIL thought."

"WELL DONE IS BETTER THAN WELL SAID"

"EID IS THE DAY OF FRIENDSHIP WITH EVERY ONE, EVERY WHERE."
"“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.”"

"Tough times never last, but tough people do."

"Some people lose their health getting wealth and then lose their wealth gaining health.."

"The highest hurdle to cross is your own mindset ....."

"We have to explore ourselves to learn our own capabilities and limitations"

"Sometimes you should stop running behind what you want the most and let it come to you.................."

"Your thoughts cause your feelings"

A men ask his mom, "How can I find the right women for me?" And the answer, "Don't worry about finding the right women, concentrate on becoming the right men." HA!

"Just like the weather, people have the ability to change."

"sometimes two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together"

"Nobody can hurt me without my permission." - Mahatma Gandhi"

"Give people a second chance, because no one is perfect."

"Only Self Transformation leads to World Transformation.."

"Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you"

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new...."

"Being frank doesn't mean that you have to hurt others !"

"there is always a reason for every unanswered question....."

"it's better to be the giver than a receiver... the one who helps than the one who needs help..."

"don't worry about failure.worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try"

"sometimes not knowing is so much better, than knowing too much..."

"What man's mind can create, man's character can control."

"Never let anyone steal ur joy.."

"anger and love have no limits; we should learn how to control both feelings..."

"Invest in your health - the best investment ever!"
""I notice people are more concerned with their possessions, insuring them, looking after their new cars, new toys, yet do nothing for the No 1 most important thing in their life - their body. Once we lose our health it's gone, not replaceable, possessions are!""

"searching for happiness is the first step for unhappiness"


"Love can be described in a million different ways but nothing beats experiencing it."
""Can't beat that glow that emanates from within and radiates from you.""

"Memories play very confusing role... it make u cry when u remember the time u laughed together....."

"Time is a healer of hurt."

"Never ignore a gut feeling, but never believe that it's enough."

"Dont worry about the people from your past...cause there is a reason they did not make it to your future!"

"Only mutual respect between humans can bring them closer"

"If u love sumone...show it too ...it's far better than saying it in words only."

"Understanding every one is not possible,understand yourself thoroughly first."

"The best way to say goodbye : Never turn back"

"Walk the 'walk of life' with dignity."

"Don't let frustration rule and ruin your life..."
""Self pity, more than anything, interferes with positive actions and moving forward. ""

Jumat, 02 Oktober 2009

song of the month okt 09

Banyu Biru feat. Artasya Sudirman - Andai Kata

*
Oh Andai kau berada disamping
Kan ku peluk selalu
Oh Andai kata kau tak tinggalkan diriku
Kan ku belai selalu

Reff:
I wish you were here with me
I wish you were here with me
To hold me tight be with me
I wish you were here with me
I wish you were here with me
To love me and complete me

**
Hanya waktu yang tahu
Kapan kau akan ada disisiku
Sekian lama kurindu
Entah kapan akan kembali dihatiku
Tapi kau tlah pergi

Oh andai kata oh seharusnya
Kau memang milikku
Oh andai kata oh seharusnya
Kau memang milikku

Back to Reff

Kuingin kau tahu sayangku
Kucinta padamu selalu
Oh bilakan aku selalu
Bercinta denganmu

Back to **

Tapi kau tlah pergi
Tapi kau tlah pergi

Back to *

Kamis, 01 Oktober 2009

TIME LIMIT

I can’t stop the time
Even just a minute
And time closer
That can make me more panic,,

My mind so complicated
deadline pursue my



Can I take a rest for a moment??
I can’t thinking ..
And I can’t do anything,,
GOD,, help me to get out of this situation,,

Its just because I not ready
Or it because I was to panic?
when I remember, and imagine my absence.
It makes me very sad
believe me. i gonna miss u


so Speechless

Rabu, 30 September 2009

Its just a feelin

Boy
I remind you again
Like u never lost in my thoughts
When I see the thing bout you
It’s the same thing that make me change my mind

U make me asking
Asking about this feeling
Oh boy,,,
Why I’m so obsess with you
So obsess
Until I never worried for nothing

From your head to your toe
I just gotta let you know
That I wanna have you

I’m sick inside without a sense of feelin
Tired of living like a blind
Coz when I beside you
I can see the world even when I’m blind,,

Jumat, 25 September 2009

sebuah cerita sebuah kisah

malam ini,,
smoga menjadi malam yang tak terlupakan
kataku berkata dalam hati,,,
sambil berias didepan kaca sembari menunggu teman menjemput ,,
teman ya kita hanya berteman

* tin tin tin *
waww suara tanda mobil sudah berada depan rumah
bergegas aku keluar tidak lupa melihat tuk terakhir kali penampilanku dalam sebuah kaca
fuuhhhh deg-deg-an hatiii ini,,

dia : haii selamat malam
aku : haiii malam,,, *sambil melemparkan senyum terindah* walo dalam hati ini detak jantung berdetak kencang. tapi aku mencoba bersikap biasa,,,
aku : so how? berangkat?
dia : oowww okeh sudah siap-kah?
aku : yup * sambil mengenggukkan kepala*
mom,,, aku pergiiii

masuklah kita kedalam sebuah mobil
hanya berdua..
fuihhhh saltingnyaaaaa akuu,, groginya diriku dihadapannya,,
berharap hari ini bisa berjalan sesuai rencana
lancar, menyenangkan , dan unforgetable,, i hopee so,,

bercengrama, mengobrol,,,
sampai akhirnya tibalah kita dalam suatu pesta itu,,
pesta yang cukup mewah

kami berjalan beriringan bersama memasuki altar pesta tersebut
dan tanpa kusadari smuaaa mata tertuju pada kita,,
ya aku dan dia
entah mengapa,,
sebagian memandang kasian , sebagian memandang penuh arti , sebagian memandang entahlahhh apa yang mereka pikirkan

gerahh rasanyaaaa dipandang seperti ituu
rasanyaaaa ingin sekali aku menghilang pada saat itu
tapii aku tak bisa memutar balik
hanya bisa berjalan lurus bersama dia
hahahaha ya karna alasan seseorang disebelahku aku bertahan disini
terlalu picik memang tapi inilah kenyataannya

dia yang meyakinkanku tuk tetap bertahan disini dan berjalan bersama
dan berjanji untuk tetap menemani aku sampai acara pesta ini berakhir,,
ahhh senangnya aku pada saat itu ..

ya dia memang sudah tauu kalau pesta ini akan "mengundang" banyak "mata"
dengan kedatangan kita berdua..
ahh biarkanlahh
pada saat itu aku hanya mau menikmati malam itu
entah menikmati pesta itu bersama dia atau hanya sekedar menikmati dia berada disampingku,,,

sampai dia menyadarkanku pada lamunanku
dia : please wait for a minute. u just sit and wait me to come,, okay?
aku : uhmm okay...
dia : do want me to give u something?
aku : uhmm bring me a coffee ?
dia : ok * dengan senyumnya yang menggetarkan hati*
,,,,,,,
after 5 minute
dia : this coffee i give it to u for ur request and this flower i give it to u because u perform great today ...
aku : *hanya bisa terbegong bengong dgn ucapannya dan dgn kopi dan bunganya*
dia : heyyy you,,,
aku : ooo im sorry great for what?
dia : i dont know u want to look great today for this "party" or u want to look great today for me,, but for to be honest.. for me you look so great today,,,
aku : thank u. im so appreciated for ur flower n everything
(dalam hati aku berkata) for to be honest i do this because i go to the party with u,, its just because u walk beside me,, because of u,,,

deannnnnnn,,,
terdengar sayup sayup orang memanggilku
deannnnnnnnn,,,,
sekali lagi terdengar
deannnnnnnnnnn!!!
kali ini cukup lantang

ahhhhh
aku terbangun dalam lamunanku
aku mendapati diriku berada dalam ruangan pesta
berdiri memegani secangkir kopi
ahhhh aku hanya berkahyal

teman2 : ngapain c? dipanggilin ga nyaut2,, ayoo kita pulang
ya ternyata seorang teman memanggilku tuk mengajakku tuk pulang
ya aku stg bersama teman ,,,
ya aku masih punya banyak teman ,,,

aku meninggalkan altar pesta itu bersama mereka dan menuju parkiran masing-masing
kita berpisah disini

pfuhhhhh
kuakui lamunan itu terasa begitu nyataaa
kulalui jalan tol yang masih sepi
lurussss,,, dan sendiri

yaaa baru ku sadari aku kembali sendirii,,,
dan lamunan itu tak pernah menjadi nyata,,,
bahkan di dalam mimpi aku tak pernah berani mengatakannya ,,
sendiri dan menikmati kesendirian
irulah pilihanku ...



aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini ..

ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

Selasa, 15 September 2009

quote of the month


"Don't regret, because at that time, it was exactly what you wanted."

"don't make the same mistake twice"

"The character of a man is known from his conversations."

"The best way to achieve your dreams is to wake up from sleep"

"An argument always interrupts a discussion."

"One form of loving is when you just want the best for that person whether it includes you or not."

"the difference between possible and impossible lies in a person's determination"

"The more you expect, the more you get disappointed in life."

"Make moments memories for you, and memorable for everyone else."

""Everybody wants to have a loving and caring person next to them. They dream of it, they are looking for it, but when they find it, they take it for granded, they get annoyed by it and then ignorance begins.""

"Write your Sad times in Sand, Write your Good times in Stone"

"Forgiveness & Apology is not weakness"

"It is not the receiver that is blessed, but it is the giver"

"Love all, trust a few. "
""We look forward to the time when the Power of Love will replace the Love of Power. Then will our world know the blessings of peace""

"You will never "find" time for anything. If you want time you must make it."

"Love is possible after friendship, but friendship is not possible after love."

"Accept people and situations as they are"

"Never share your secrets with anybody. If you cannot keep secret with you, don't expect that other will keep it."
""It will destroy you.""

"Not all relations are eternal, but all of them bring something into our lives while they are there"

"Our everyday companions aren't necessarily our real friends"


"I may not get to see you as often as I like
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night
But deep in my heart I truly know
you're the one that I love
and I can't let you go"

"You left me,
but you cannot leave my heart
I hold you there,
with or without your will
No matter where you go, you will be part
Of me, my dearest friend and lover still..."

Selasa, 01 September 2009

song of the month september 2009

coba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan,
janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan, dari apa yang dijalankan,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
buktikan dan buatLAH aku percaya bahwa kita bisa,
mewujudkan bahagia,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..



ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

wohoho.. dudududu…
wohoho.. dudududu…

yang ku inginkan..
satu tujuan..
sebuah kenyataan..
bukan impian..
bukan harapan..
bukan alasan..
satu kepastian..

coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..

Senin, 24 Agustus 2009

agree and disagree for this month


"Feelings...to express them or hide them"

"Forgiveness isn't always easy....but you forgive people not for their benefit. You do it for your own benefit"

"When you meet the right person every other thing comes easily"

"Hate is such a waste of our energy dont waste your time on negative thoughts and feelings..........."

"Do not be a slave to your mind."


"One of the hardest things in life isn't grabbing onto things, it's letting them go"

"forgive but dont forget"

"Journey becomes indefinite when you remain undecided about your Destiny..."

"When a person finds no peace within himself or herself, it is useless to seek it elsewhere. "

"A simple way to be fulfilled in a relationship is to express your need & listen to the other's need...."

"There is never a wrong time to do right things.."

"Success is to get what you want, luck is to keep what you get."

"The three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions. "

"Over time, our material possessions become an integral part of our identity"

"Maturity doesnt come with age, it comes with awareness, experience and knowledge."

"Any day you do not learn something new is a day you have wasted"

"Try and fail, but don't fail to try"

"DON'T EVER LOOK BACK .. CHANCES ARE ALWAYS IN FRONT OF YOU"

"Every relationship has a name, a level and respect.Difficult to understand the difference required to handle each ."

Selasa, 11 Agustus 2009

tears


love,,
love not definite between 2 people was falling in love
love not definite between 2 people with different gender
between man and woman

love is so large
love for best friend
love for family
love for a dream

and when that love test
in two different good choice
bout selfish and bout mother feeling

its my dream
i wait so long for this and coming to my life
im just walking my way
but when it coming why i must to let it go?

the most person with a big hope & strength
and a part of her has grown in me
mom,,
trust me i always wanna make u happy
i wanna make you smile

but mom,,
i just want u to know
look at me i have a dream
i have a my own way
to realized

even this chance will left me,
but my dream cannot leave from my heart
the more i feel
the more i see in everything that passion me
the more i feel
the more i believe in everything
makes me want to live

i just don't to be hide and break a silence
to looking expectations then just can make me dissapointed in the end
i never thought that I'm so strong

and mom
how do i know the best if i never try
if this ur decision
your feeling d best for me
i just don't wanna make u hurt anymore again
even it can make me hurt
and make my tears fall down

i really love u

Jumat, 07 Agustus 2009

the way i am

song of the month agustus2009

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.



Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.


INGRID MICHAELSON -the way i am-

Selasa, 04 Agustus 2009

i guest

i dont remember what i feel
when that moment

the moment that can make me so up and down
my heart screaming when u are here
every time u come and beside me

to much memorable to forget it
coz' to much clear ur face in my mind
i wanna keep that but u're still in my dream

like a water
when i breathless
you come to make feel relieved my throat
and then u flowing away n leave me
always like that

and every time u did again
my heart still beat so fast
n i can't keep that feeling


but now the beat slowest than before
coz its only make me tired
no more drama
no more feeling

i guest ,,
i guest is enough

Jumat, 31 Juli 2009

hold me tight

when this heart start to open
I’ve finally found you
and you come into my life
even with a space even with a different character

i love you
for everything in you

but now you’re running down to the road
left me, hiding something,
pain inside this heart and kept some secret
let me know everything
stared from my eyes



I am trapped in this silly situation
I'm really tired, I cant move anymore
I tried to find him

I just want the real man
who's not to be hiding
who's not to be foolish
but who's cares more
who's love me so

I cant find my way back home
waiting for a ride
I close my eyes, I hope I can see your smile and hold me tight
please,,

when u love someone

song of the month for july 2009


I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever but you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true

I used to hide and watch you from a distance
And I knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer
At least to say “Hello”
And I can’t stand to wait ‘till night is coming to my life

When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true

I never thought that Im so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up, just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way

When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true


endah n resha -when u love someone-


Jumat, 24 Juli 2009

where i go to landing?

i start my vacation
with my preparation
i bring my bag and a lot of commodity

going by a plane
travel by my self
I like to be around the world

and i already to feel many country and city
I already done a half around the world
but i not yet to find the best destination
i ever come

like a ways of love
the ways of look a man
going out by plane with somebody
and always make me so fly high

but we never know how many times we should be transit
we never know how many times we must to get broken heart
we never know when we are in the destination
like as we never know when we found the soul mate

and i start to ended my vacation
to get bearings my last destination as like at home
comfort and make me warm
in another half of the world
where i go to landing this plane?



waiting


yesterday we are friend
yesterday we laugh together as friend
yesterday we are friend
its yesterday

now
u are still be my friend
but everything change
as a change when i see u that day
u are not only be my friend for laugh
but u becaming more than friend for me

and tomorrow
i will see u for the first time as a couple

sometimes i feel so weird
sometimes i feel so funny
and sometimes i feeling thats what i want

but how the real feel?
i never know

but i want to know how that feel
how ur way to make me comfort to be with u
how ur way to hug me so deeply,,,

and i'm waiting when that day comes

Kamis, 23 Juli 2009

1 bulan kita bersama
selama itu kita saling mengenal satu sama lain
1 bulan kita bersama
mungkin terlalu singkat
tapi tidak terlalu singkat untuk mencintaimu

aku sedih dan melamunkanmu
mataku memandang sebuah kekosongan
tidakkah kau merasa
Dibalik karya yang tak bernyawa
Dapatkah kau rasa
dibalik setiap kata yang aku ucap

Kau mengisiku seperti halnya aku yang melengkapimu

Setapak demi setapak kutelurusi jalan cintaku
Penuh debu dan kerikil yang tajam
Kakiku tak sesakit luka dihatiku
ketika kau meragukanku

Namun ku terus berjalan
Tetap tegar sambil terseok-seok
Ku biarkan semua berlalu
Dengan keyakinan
Dengan harapan
kau tidak akan meragukannku


because i promise that
you'll never walk alone!!

u always be my side
and we walk together
just believed to me !!
i just wanna showing to u the demureness

Selasa, 21 Juli 2009

like coffee



for every moment in my life
for every memories in my life
leave behind a beautiful
but sometimes leave behind a bitter

and for a long time ago i feel a bitter
like coffee
the black coffee
without the sugar , cream, or milk

as like as my love life
black, bitter
without a taste, without a feeling
and I'm enjoy the coffee

but for a long time i drink and i feel the black coffee
I'm tired , I'm feel bored
and now i wanna try again to drink coffee with cream or milk
i just wanna feel it again

so i can feel the taste of milk
feel the taste of sugar
the taste of cream
and honestly i want to feel it with u
i wanna feel the taste from u

and i hope the coffee will be sweet

the words that u can agree or disagree!!



"Life is like making investment... sometimes you need to take risk to get through it..."

"the easiest way to feel happy is to make others happy.."

"Memories can be friend or foe !!!"

"The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places"

"Enthusiasm Is INFECTIOUS.."

"Sooner or later we get bored of everything in life including all human and material objects!"

"we are all responsible for our own actions"

"Keep your head and your heart in the right direction and you don't have to worry about the feet ."

"No one can avoid love...when it comes, there is no way except falling in it.."

"Men want to be needed, and women need to be wanted."

Failure is an event,"

"You know how to give , You know how to forgive."
""A giving person is a forgiving person..:)""

"We are never all alone...some memories are always with us..."

"No one is in charge of your happiness,but you.."

"Sharing thoughts is the first step to improve understanding of our self and of each other."

"Don't ask God for a easy life, ask him to make you a strong person"


Senin, 29 Juni 2009

aku hanya

Dalam setiap detak alunan lagu
Dalam setiap gerakan dalam tubuh ini
Aku begitu menikmatinya
Tapi tak pernah aku sadari
selama ini Aku telah berdansa dengan bayanganmu
for a long time i'm dancing with ur shadow

Tak perlu kau nilai-nilai semua
Tatap mataku dan kau akan tau apa yang aku rasakan
Selama ini aku bertahan

but now i'm so stiflingly hot
and i'm losing my emotion
And now it chills me to the bone



Ku terdiam bukan berarti aku menerima
Tapi aku tak mau menjadi gila
Ku terdiam bukan berarti bahagia
Tapi karena aku kecewa

Gelap mata ini yang tak mampu membedakan gelap terang cahaya
Atau...
Memang hati yang sedang tak ingin membuka diri?
Lelah aku menaungi setiap ratapan
Akankah usai?
Tapi untuk menolehpun kau enggan...

Hubungan ini menghantarkanku ke dunia yang semakin tak ku tahu
Di mana begitu banyak keanehan, begitu pekat keraguan
Aku tersesat pada hatiku sendiri




Mungkin ini rasa...
Rasa yang bersembunyi dibalik keraguan...
Adakah terpikirkan olehmu jikalau hati ini letih?
Letih terhadap setiap ketidak wajaran yang kerap terjadi?

Dapatkah kau mengerti?
Aku hanya merindukan suatu kewajaran
kewajaran dari hatimu untukku

Jumat, 19 Juni 2009

our world

i'm feel that i'm loosing U
i don't know u
u are different than yesterday

hate that is happen to me
is just a sensitive feeling that i feel?
or is real feeling?

u are in your world
and i'm here
waiting u to come to our world

the world that can make laugh
the world that can make smile
just for us

and i miss u
for everything in U

Jumat, 12 Juni 2009

why always me?

everybody doesn't know what happen
but everybody judging me to much!!

i'm tired with all of this situation

just for a second
but u into my heart so deep
just for a second
i felt like hurt

i'm angry
i'm hate u

but just for a second
i'm losing u
and just for a second
i regret with my decision

i think about u
i fight to not cry but i can't

i feel that i'm in love with u
and i'm addicted with u

please forgive me
if i'm wrong
please forgive me...

i still need u

i miss u

Senin, 08 Juni 2009

dalam diam

dalam diam aku mengaguminya
dalam diam aku merindukannya

menarik mata dan hati-ku tuk semakin mendekat
mendekat tuk mengenalmu lebih dalam

tanpa sadar aku merindukannya
tanpa sadar aku menyukainya

namun mengapa kau tak jujur?
tak jujur pada keadaan?

jiwa ini bergulat
hati ini menolak
namun raga ini terlalu kuat tuk menerima

dalam Sebuah antagonistik yang masih menjelajahi kelimbungan
Dan masih bermain dengan kesetiaan
Atau mungkinkah ini adalah sebuah penghianatan?


Ini bukan sebuah kompleksitas
Ini hanyalah sebuah dilema
Dilema yang terperangkap di dalam keambisiusan tanya

dalam drama yang kau mainkan
terlihat sempurna
sehingga aku terbawa dalam lakon yang ku perankan

Aku mengerang
Aku kesakitan
Aku menutup mata

Dan seketika ku tersadar
aku lelah bermain

dalam diam aku bimbang
dalam diam aku tak kuasa
dalam diam aku masih bertanya

Sabtu, 06 Juni 2009

sebuah kata

Dia
antara ada dan tiada??
apakah dia itu nyata??
atau hanya gambaran tentang seseorang yang kita punya

apakah kita mencintai dia??
atau hanya mencintai gambaran tentang seseorang??
ataukah hanya senang dengan menganguminya dari kejauhan??
karena pada hakekatnya orang hanya mencintai dirinya sendiri

tapi sebuah ketulusan membuka ruang ke egoisan
untuk berbagi
untuk bersama

sehingga tidak ada ruang sempit yang menyesakan
hanya ada padang savana yang luas yang membelah cakrawala
bisakah aku menerima dia tanpa syarat???
atau bisakah dia menerima aku tanpa syarat??

kita semua bermain dalam rasa akan tetapi tak ada yang berani merasa
inilah kegelisahan hati
namun membuka pandangan baru
untuk bisa merasakan dan berucap kejujuran


kata adalah senjata

untuk membunuh rasa

tapi rasa tak dapat membunuh kata

tapi kata hanya lah sebuah kata

yang tak punya makna tanpa rasa

aku berjuang demi waktu
dan berharap bisa menghentikan waktu
sehingga aku bisa bermain dengan waktu
serta mampu mengatur waktu
dan berharap seandainya aku bisa menikmati waktu di kala kumenunggu

coretan tangan ini mungkin tak akan bermakna
terutama bagi org2 yang tak ada dalam rasa yang di siratkan dalam coretan ini
yang menusuk hati menjalar di otak
dan menambah sugesti membuat hidup bagai tertukar antara malam dan siang
karena otak telah berputar apakah saya yang di maksud dalam tulisan ini....
adakah aku orang dalam coretan tangan ini?...


disadur dari penggalan kata yang diucap
-VA-

Jumat, 05 Juni 2009

u are what i want


Terlalu manis pesonamu
Mencuri keheningan hati
Untuk cintaku bersandar

Kita sedang berbicara tentang rasa
Sebuah rasa yang lama tertinggal
Antara aku dan kamu

Kali ini aku hanya membahasakannya dalam diam
kudekap pelan dalam nurani terdalam
Seakan denyut nadi pun ikut meredam dalam diam

Disini kududuk sendiri
menanti pagi yang tak pernah mati
Meski terasa lelah aku bertahan…
Tapi aku akan terus menahan…


Karena kamu bukan kekasih yang hilang
tapi Kamulah pasangan jiwa yang ingin kutemukan

kontradiksi

Mataku memandang dan kulihat sebuah dunia yang kukenal
Dunia yang penuh warna dan arti, dunia yang begitu mempesona
Namun ku hanya tersenyum simpul dan kembali tuk tidak tersenyum, bahkan ku tak tertawa

Adakah keraguan, ataukah sebuah penyesalan
Pada akhirnya, kutanya diriku, Mengapa

perjalanan jauh ini membuatku tersiksa
membuka pintu di ujung waktu
yang mungkin mengantarku padamu

namun bibir berkata, hati berkelana, dan Otak menyimpang entah kemana

Semua begitu kontradiksi

Tidak ada keselarasan

Dan sesosok individu hilang dari kriteria tegas atas sebuah karakteristik


Hatiku dipenuhi keraguan dan kebimbangan
Awan gelap menyelimuti relung hatiku
Kabut menutup jalan pikiranku

Kucoba dan kucoba tuk menjernihkan segala asa
Kegelapan tetap ada bersama bayangku
Pada akhirnya, kutanya diriku, Mengapa

Aku hanya ingin berjalan dengan sebagaimana mestinya
Antara kau, aku dan lainnya...
Dan maaf jika kita harus berjalan pada ketidaksempurnaan...

There’s something but nothing!

Semestinya kau jangan hadir
Seharusnya jangan ada perkenalan terjalin
Namun aku terlanjur mereguk aroma mewangi
Dari keceriaan dan kelincahan yang kau miliki

Kehadiran mu selalu mengganggu
Menyiksa semua kehidupan ku
Semakin meluapkan daya pikat yang menggemaskan
Caramu menatap menyiratkan sejuta makna rasa
Tersembunyi di balik langit biru memancar



Nikmatmu semakin semu ‘tuk kujangkau
Bagai terjebak dalam ruangan berbentuk kotak
Tanpa celah napas
Adakah engkau nyata?
Akankah kedekatan di antara kita mensketsa

Dia tidak cukup nyata untuk menjadi nyata.
There’s something but nothing!

Selasa, 02 Juni 2009

sorry


when i saw u
when i spend the time with u

i found the love
but i suggest this love not the love that I'm looking for
but this love so heckled to me
to pity if i pass it
coz i love it

Why u are running,
why u are hiding
if u love me
and i bet that u love me
I'm so gorgeous and i aware that u are so damn great !!

we are in a equal feeling

even i know u already have someone
someone that u say just a friend
*sorry i don't believe that*

i have a heart
i don't want being foolish
i don't want fall for u
i miss u but i don't wanna be spine of Ur relationship


love is being stupid together
right?!
sorry

want me to


that body want me to hug
that smell want me to kiss
I'm tempted with all of that

in every second beside u
i can't refuse this feeling
the feeling that i want you

like a drug
when you're with me, it's a high
I'm addicted with u
with Ur smell and with Ur body
and I'm so fixated to get it
its sick but I'm enjoy it

and every beat of my mind, I only want you more

Senin, 01 Juni 2009

.........

Everytime I take a step ahead into the future
Sometimes I'm still stuck on what's left behind
Everytime I think of what you said which had a meaning
Sometimes I keep thinking if you were right

Listen all together let us sing

Why are people running, why are people hiding
Why are people crying for this love




God please tell me what you've done in our world
It ain't strange we keep asking all the time
Lord please take your prophet and send him on
And we just keep on praying our hope ain't gone

Help me brotha, sista

Kamis, 28 Mei 2009

about poetry


We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.
Professor Keating (Robin Williams) in 'Dead Poet's Society'

Rabu, 27 Mei 2009

(If Loving You Is Wrong) I DON'T WANT TO BE RIGHT

(If Loving You Is Wrong) I DON'T WANT TO BE RIGHT
Luther Ingram
(Banks / Hampton / Jackson)

If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If being right means being without you
I'd rather live a wrong doing life
Your mama and daddy say it's a shame
It's a downright disgrace
Long as I got you by my side
I don't care what your people say

Your friends tell you there's no future
in loving a married man
If I can't see you when I want to
I'll see you when I can
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right

Am I wrong to fall so deeply in love with you
knowing I got a wife and two little children
depending on me too
And am I wrong to hunger
for the gentleness of your touch
knowing I got somebody else at home
who needs me just as much



And are you wrong to fall in love
with a married man
And am I wrong trying to hold on
to the best thing I ever had
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right

Are you wrong to give your love
to a married man
And am I wrong trying to hold on
to the best thing I ever had
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right
If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right

I don't wanna be right
if it means sleeping alone at night
I don't wanna be right
if it means coming home at night
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna never, never, never be right

Senin, 25 Mei 2009

never change

the feels of love start from eyes.

and the feels like start from ears

and if I want to stop to like someone , just close my ears

but with U i try to close my eyes , try to forget u

but the love change to be a tears and still leave in my heart for a long time

I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall fast, because every time I fall in love... it never seems to last.

and for this
The never-ending feeling when I'm with you

You are the same people
that never change

yesterday , now or tomorrow



loving u like loving my loneliness

and in my loneliness I'm officially yours

I can close my eyes to things I don’t want to see,

I can close my lips to things I don't want to talk,

but I can’t close my heart to things I don’t want to feel...

and
You already had me at hello..

If Loving you wrong, i don't wanna be right

marriage about

"Woman was created from the rib of man
Not from his head to be above him
Nor his feet to be walked upon
But from his side to be equal
Near his arm to be protected
And close to his heart to be loved"
-Dale S. Hadley-

" Don't marry the person you think you can live with; marry only the individual you think you can't live without " - James C. Dobson

"Don't walk in front of me, I maynot follow
Don't walk behind me, I maynot lead
Just walk beside me & be my love FOREVER...!"

"For hearing my thoughts, understanding my dreams and being my best friend, for filling my life with joy and loving me without end, I do." - Unknown -



"I love you, not because who you are, but what you made me when I'm beside you"

"The road to true love was never easy, I know I've hit all the bumps, but now I'm standing strong saying, I love you, 'til the end of time."

"Marriage is like a song, where the Lord's sweet melody of love comes from two hearts joined as one, husband and wife."

"Many marriages would be better if the husband and the wife clearly
understood that they are on the same side." - Zig Ziglar

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." - Sam Keen

"Love is not just looking at each other,
It's looking in the same direction" - Antoine de Saint-Exupery, Wind, Sand and Stars, French writer (1900 - 1944)

“All married couples should learn the art of battle as they should learn the art of making love” - Ann Landers



"Marriage has less beauty but more safety than a single life; it’s full of sorrows and full of joys. It lies under more burdens, but it is supported by all the strengths of love, and those burdens are delightful."
taken from movie: "Forces of Nature"

"You don't love your wife because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her with all your heart" -Unknown-

"It takes three seconds to say I love you. Three hours to explain it and a lifetime to prove it."

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."-Lao Tzu-

"It takes a minute to like someone, and hour to love someone, but to forget someone takes a life time." - Unknown

"Morning is a wonderful blessing, either sunny or stormy.
It stands for hope ... giving us another start of what we call Life" - Anonymous

"When I wake up, turn over, and see you lying next me, I can't help but smile; it will be a good day simply because I started it with you."

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

"True love is when the reality of everyday life seems like a dream, and every wonderful dream each night is fulfilled in real life."


and

"love means to commit oneself without guarantee"

shoes like





Bagi Titi, cowok itu ibarat sepatu.

Setiap perempuan membutuhkan sepatu. Lebih tepat lagi, sebuah sepatu andalan yang bisa dipakai kapan saja saat dibutuhkan. Seperti sepatu yang sudah ada tiga tahun ada di bagasi mobil Titi. Warnanya hitam. Haknya hanya tiga senti. Harganya juga tidak mahal. Sepatu itu tidak berlabelkan Manolo Blahnik, sepatu yang diciptakan oleh seorang Spanyol yang sangat digila-gilai oleh Carrie Bradshaw dan jutaan wanita lain di belahan dunia ini.

Sepatu itu, Titi beli saat berlibur ke Bandung bersama teman-teman kuliah. Iseng-iseng dia mencobanya ketika berbelanja baju di sebuah factory outlet di jalan Riau. Eh! Ternyata, sepatu itu nyaman sekali. Bagi Titi yang memang penggila sepatu, harga sepatu yang dia coba itu juga tidak mahal. Tanpa pikir panjang, Titi membelinya. Dan sampai sekarang, sepatu itu menjadi sepatu yang sangat diandalkan Titi.

Dulu, saat sepatu Jimmy Choo oleh-oleh dari Tante Sarah secara tidak sengaja tersangkut besi penutup gorong jalan sampai haknya patah, sepatu hitam murah itu yang bisa ‘menyelamatkan dia agar tidak tampil ‘pincang’ di acara ulang tahun Marina. Sejak peristiwa itu lah, Titi sangat sayang pada sepatu murah berwarna hitam. Maka, ia menyimpannya di bagasi. Sebagai cadangan bila sepatu yang ia pakai bermasalah.

“You are my lucky shoes.” Gumam Titi setiap kali dia melakukan ritual membersihkan sepatu hitam itu.

Titi si penggila sepatu mungkin sadar kalau Zaki juga sangat tergila-gila pada Titi. Sudah dua tahun terakhir ini, Zaki ‘digantung’ tanpa kepastian.

Satu tahun yang lalu.
“Saya sayang banget sama kamu, Ti…” Ujar Zaki dengan tulus.
“Aku juga sayang sama kamu. Tapi…”
“Tapi?”
“Tapi, aku pengen kita tetep seperti ini. Ngga usah jadian.”
“Hm?”
“Aku ngga siap terikat.”
“…”
“Kayak gini aja. Kita bisa jalan kapan aja. Kamu bisa nelpon aku kapan aja.”
Zaki menghembuskan napas panjang. Sedikit kecewa dengan pernyataan Titi. “Tapi…”
“Percaya deh sama aku, kita mendingan kayak gini. No commitment. Aku belum siap terikat dan aku ngga bisa kalo kamu pengen lebih dari itu.” Potong Titi dengan santai.


Zaki memang tidak mempunyai pilihan lain selain menuruti apa kata Titi. Ia sudah terlanjur sayang dengan perempuan penggila sepatu itu. Titi memang menarik. Berwajah oval, kulit yang sangat terawat dan potongan rambut ala Cleopatra membuat Zaki seperti Marcus Anthonius alias Mark Antony yang sangat tergila-gila pada perempuan jelita dari Egypt.

Sementara bagi Titi, Zaki hanya laki-laki yang ia simpan di ‘bangku cadangan’ Zaki bisa dikatakan bernasib seperti sepatu hitam andalannya. Disimpan di bagasi dan hanya dipakai pada saat-saat tertentu.

“Kamu tuh jahat banget deh Ti sama Zaki.” Komentar Marina saat mereka berdua sedang duduk santai di kantin jurusan.
“Jahat?” Titi langsung meletakan botol minuman dingin yang sedang ia nikmati.
“Iya lah, cowok baek kayak dia kamu jadiin cadangan gitu.”
Titi hanya tertawa.
“Lho, kok malah ketawa sih Ti? Aku serius nih.”
“Marina…, kamu inget kan sepatu hitam yang aku beli di Bandung?”
“Iya, sepatu yang selalu ada di bagasi mobil kamu.”

Titi tersenyum.

“Hubungannya sama Zaki?”
“Sepatu itu, meski murah dan ngga berlabel Manolo Blahnik atau Kate Spade, adalah sepatu ternyaman buat aku. Nah, Zaki itu ngga jauh beda deh.”
“Ha?”
“Aku nyaman sama dia. Dia baik dan pengertian banget. Tapi ngga salah kan kalo aku suka juga sama yang lain?”

Marina mengangkat bahu.

“Perumpamaannya sih kayak aku suka sama sepatu-sepatu Jimmy Choo yang bagus-bagus itu. Ngga salah kan? Toch aku tetep nyimpen sepatu factory outlet Bandung itu.”
Marina menggelengkan kepala. “Titi…, Titi… Cowok kok disamain kayak sepatu sih?”
“Ferry lagi ngedeketin aku, Rin! Masa sih cowok keren di kampus kita ini aku lewatin aja? Sayang kan?” Mata Titi mengerling jahil.
“Aduuuh Titi! Masa sih kamu ngga tau gimana reputasi Ferry ke cewek-cewek?”
“Tapi kan dia keren, Rin. Udah lama banget aku suka sama dia tapi baru kali ini dia ngajak aku nge-date.”
“Ti…, Ferry itu suka mainin cewek! Udah deh. Stay away from him otherwise you will be his next victim!”
“Ferry tuh udah berubah, Rin. Dia sendiri yang ngaku sama aku.”
“Ah! Aku ngga percaya.” Tutur Marina dengan wajah yang sedikit judes. “Itu sih akal-akalan dia aja biar bisa jadian sama kamu.”
“Bener kok Rin. Dia beda banget sama yang orang-orang bilang.”
“Trus Zaki? Apa kabarnya tuh?”

Titi tidak menjawab pertanyaan Marina.

“Dua minggu yang lalu, aku masih liat dia nganterin kamu pulang abis kuliah.”
“…”
“Ti? Kok diem aja?”
“Iya, aku memang nelpon dia. Minta tolong jemput. Kan mobilku lagi masuk bengkel Rin. Mana hujan lagi.”
“Kenapa ngga telepon Ferry?”
“Mmmm…”
“Ferry lagi jalan sama cewek lain ya?” Marina tersenyum lebar.
“Ferry lagi latihan sepak bola. Jadi ngga bisa jemput aku.”
“Jadiii…, kalo Ferry ngga available, Zaki selalu jadi tempat pelarian nih?”

Titi menjawab pertanyaan Marina dengan senyum kecut.

Kasus Ferry sebenarnya bukan yang pertama. Dulu, Titi sangat tergila-gila dengan Reno, anak Teknik Industri. Jalan beberapa kali. Begitu menemukan hal yang membuatnya tidak sreg, Titi kembali menelepon Zaki. Belum lagi saat Titi didekati Bambang yang ternyata super posesif, Zaki adalah tempat Titi ‘kembali’.

Padahal untuk urusan tampang dan penampilan, Zaki termasuk oke alias bisa menyamai gaya dandanan Titi. Urusan akademis pun, IPK Zaki tidak pernah lebih kecil dari 2.5.
Tapi Titi seperti tidak melihat semua kebaikan Zaki. Semua orang selalu lebih dari Zaki. Tapi bila Titi dikecewakan oleh mereka, Titi selalu berpaling pada Zaki dan Zaki, memiliki tingkat kesabaran yang luar biasa, selalu menerima Titi dengan senang hati.

“Udah ah Rin, jangan ngomongin Zaki. Mendingan temenin aku yuk ke mall. Nine West lagi diskon lho… Aku pengen deh liat-liat koleksi sepatunya. Lumayan kan beli sepatu bagus trus dapet diskon?”
“Ya ampun Ti… bukannya minggu kemaren kamu baru beli sepatu di Zara?”
“Iya sih, tapi kan aku pengen liat-liat lagi. Siapa tau ada yang cocok.”
“Dasar ratu sepatu!” Marina tertawa.
Titi bangkit dari tempat duduk. “Rin, aku parkir mobil di ujung jalan Bangka. Tadi dateng kesiangan. Jadi aja, harus parkir di tempat berbatu gitu.”
“Yah gak apa-apa. Jalan agak jauh kan sekalian olah raga.”

Tempat parkir di kampus Titi dan Marina memang luas. Tapi, namanya juga Jakarta, tidak sedikit mahasiswa yang membawa mobil ke kampus. Titi yang biasanya datang lebih awal demi mendapatkan tempat parkir yang nyaman beraspal tebal, kali ini terpaksa memarkir mobil agak jauh dari kampus, di atas jalan yang berbatu.

Belum sampai mobil…

“ADUH!”
“Titi!”

Titi meringis kesakitan dengan posisi terduduk. Ia jatuh terantuk batu.

“Ti? Kamu ngga apa-apa?”
Titi menepukan kedua telapak tangan lalu berdiri. “Aku ngga apa-apa sih Rin. Tapi liat nih, sepatu yang aku pakai… haknya patah.”
Marina mengarahkan mata pada sepatu Titi. “Ya ampuuun…”
“Padahal sepatu ini baru sebulan aku beli, Rin…” Ujar Titi dengan raut muka yang sedih.
“Ya ampuuun…”
“Tapi biar deh, kan aku punya sepatu cadangan yang dari factory outlet Bandung itu.” Muka Titi sedikit cerah.

Dengan sedikit pincang, Titi berjalan menuju mobil. Ia membuka bagasi dan meraih sepatu hitam yang selalu setia menjadi andalannya bila hal-hal seperti ini terjadi.

“See? Sepatu ini…, ngga percuma aku beli. Nyaman dan selalu pas dengan model baju apapun. Jadi ngga pusing.”

Sepuluh menit kemudian, mobil Titi sudah melaju menuju sebuah mall di bilangan Senayan. Sampai di sana, Titi langsung mengajak Marina ke tempat incarannya.

“Aduh Ti, tapi aku laper berat nih. Makan bentar deh di food court. Yah?” Marina dengan muka memelas.
“Tapi kan Rin, tujuan utama kita kan ke…”
“Tujuan utama kamu kali… huhuhu… yah Ti? Please? Daripada aku jatuh pingsan pas kamu milih-milih sepatu gimana? Ribet kan?”
“Bentar aja kok, Rin…”
“Hey! I know you well… sebentar dalam kamus kamu nyari sepatu itu artinya dua jam.”
“Hehehe…, iya deh.”
“Tenang aja, toko sepatu itu kan ngga akan jalan kemana-mana kok.”

Marina dan Titi langsung menuju lantai atas dengan menggunakan escalator. Food court sore itu masih tetap ramai. Marina lalu memesan makanan sementara Titi hanya memesan minuman sambil melamun dengan sepatu-sepatu berkeliaran dalam pikirannya.

Tiba-tiba Titi melihat sosok seseorang yang sangat dikenalnya. Zaki. Ia berjalan menuju arah tempat duduk Titi dan Marina. Yang mengejutkan, ada seorang perempuan cantik melingkarkan tangannya di lengan Zaki.

“Rin! Rin!” Titi sengaja menginjak Marina yang sedang tekun menikmati ayam plus kentang goreng.
“Aduh! Apaan sih Ti?”
“Liat, siapa yang lagi jalan nyamperin kita.” Kali ini Titi berbisik karena Zaki dan perempuan cantik itu dalam dua detik sudah ada dihadapannya.
“Hallo Titi… Marina…” Zaki tersenyum lebar.
“Hallo Zaki!” Sapa Marina. Sementara Titi membalas senyum Zaki. Canggung.
“Abis shopping?”
“Belum sih, Titi nih pengen nyari sepatu. Tapi aku paksa ke sini dulu karena aku kelaparan berat.”
“Ooo… eh ya! Kenalin ini Alin… uhmmm, pacar saya.” Zaki tersenyum malu pada perempuan yang ada disampingnya.
“Alin.” Perempuan cantik itu menyalami Titi dan Marina.
“Ya udah deh Ti, Rin… kita jalan-jalan lagi ya?”

Zaki lalu menjauh dari Titi dan Marina. Titi sempat memutar kepalanya beberapa derajat memerhatikan pasangan itu.

“Hah? Zaki? Pacaran?”
“Lho? Emangnya kenapa?”
“Kok tega sih dia pacaran? Bukannya dia suka sama aku?” Ujar Titi sedih.
“Dia udah minta kamu jadi pacarnya kan, Ti?” Marina lalu mereguk air mineral yang ada di meja.

Tiba-tiba perasaan menyesal mengambang dengan cepat dalam pikiran Titi. Iya, sekarang ia baru sadar bahwa ia sangat kehilangan Zaki. Orang yang selalu mendengarkan keluh kesahnya meski sudah lewat tengah malam. Zaki, orang yang selalu available setiap kali Titi membutuhkannya. Zaki, orang yang selalu membuat perasaannya nyaman.

Sekarang, Titi kehilangan Zaki.

Tanpa sadar, Titi menekan kakinya keras-keras ke lantai. Menyadari bahwa betapa bodoh dirinya selama ini telah menyimpan Zaki di ‘bangku cadangan’. Air mata mulai menggenang. Perasaan sedih yang tiba-tiba datang.

-TAK-

Hak sepatu andalan Titi patah.


dimuat di majalah spice tahun 2006

http://istribawel.com/2009/05/sepatu-andalan-titi.html


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